First things first, I don't like anything about you, Sharon, I love
everything about you, just making that clear.
I seriously don't know where to start, I mean, my love is perfect after
all. Oh well, lets start, just saying though, this is going to be one
long post, there's just so much that I can say when describing what I
love about this girl, MY girl <3
I love your smile
I love how your face always lights up any room you're in
I love your cute little cheeks, how round and tiny they are
I love your temptingly kissable, perfectly sized pink lips
I love how straight and pearly white your beautiful teeth are
I love your big asian eyes <3
I love your cute girly laugh
I love how you always get my jokes
I love how though I'm corny, you appreciate the little things I say <3
I love how whenever you laugh, you have to stop and keep your balance
I love how you always stare at me with your big eyes
I love how your eyes never fail to mesmerize me, especially in the
sunlight <3333
I love how I could cuddle with you all day and never get tired
I love your tiny hands and how your fingers fit perfectly in between
mine
I love how small your feet are and how you always get shy whenever I'd
look at and talk about your toes :3
I love how your legs are big, but your feet are small, though you may
not like it, I think it's really cute =]
I love how flat your stomach is, yet it's so comfortable to nap on
I love your body is proportioned perfectly, and how I can't find one
thing wrong with it.
I love how feisty you are
I love how long and silky your hair is
I love your skin, no matter what your mom says about it
I love how pale you are, yet when you tan, you tend to get pretty dark
I love how even if I'm unable to hold your hand, you either hold on to
my arm or my back pack
I love how you're emotional
I love how loving you are
I love how faithful you are
I love how you're the easiest person in the world to talk to
I love how you always make me laugh
I love how you always make me smile
I love how you're comfortable enough to let me pick at your teeth and to
pick at my face, not giving a crap what anyone thinks
I love how we constantly kiss x3
I love how we always try our hardest to piss people off
I love how we kiss no matter where we are and who's around
I love how we're always saying, "I love you"
I love how you're over protective
I love how you're a gamer like me
I love how you're so tolerant
I love how can cook an amazing ham and egg sammich for me at 6 in the
morning :3
I love how cuddly you are
I love how you always kiss me in front of my exes to show that I'm
yours
I love how you're so gangsta
I love how you don't take shit from anyone
I love how you always try your hardest to keep me happy
I love how you always keep my happy ^^
I love how we share everything with each other, from blogs, to emails,
to facebooks, to food <3
I love how we keep no secrets
I love how we distance ourselves from everyone else to be together
I love how smart you are
I love how just being with you is enough to make me the happiest guy in
the world
I love how we don't even need to do anything to have a great time
I love how we could chat about anything and feel comfortable
I love how pervy and sexual we can be at times... (shh)
I love how we could be dorks together and not care <3
I love how since the first day I saw you, I instantly fell in love with
you, nd knew if I ever got you, I'd treat you like the princess you
really are.
Love, I just love you, I love everything about you.
I promise nothing will ever come in between us.
You're my one true love, and I'll be by your side forever.
I love you. <3
--netzfan4life
Monday, May 31, 2010
Future.
I always dreamed about what our future would be like. I've been like
only with him though, nobody else. I always dreamed about how peaceful
our life would be. I'm always thinking about our little studio together,
with nothing but a nice mattress in the room that was covered in messy
bedsheets and covers, a single beanbag chair, two laptops sitting on
stacks of textbooks and papers, a decently-sized HD TV, an inkjet
printer, and a large window to look out of. Nearby would be the kitchen,
neater than the main living space itself. When the two of us wake up, we
smile at each other and kiss each other. We would both get up at the
same time and scramble for the bathroom, first one there gets to hog.
After we finish yelling at each other to hand stuff over and to hurry
up, the one in the bathroom would finally open the door and let the
other in, sharing the bathroom peacefully. I would go and make
breakfast, whether it be a nice ham and egg sandwich or just popping a
bunch of waffles into the toaster. After getting dressed and eating, we
would give each other goodbye kisses and then leave for class.
Upon finishing up with classes, we would rush to each other for lunch,
have a good meal, then head off to work. I would be doing work-study or
supervising kids while he would be doing some heavy work at a store. I
would most likely get off work earlier than he would so I would go and
visit his job, give him a kiss, then head home to make dinner (not to
buy groceries or take-out). After he comes home and finishes eating, we
would take turns taking a bath/shower while the other did homework. We
would just continue to do our homework until we feel like sleeping,
turning on the TV and watching it blink while someone got a bag of chips
from the kitchen cabinet, pulling the covers over each other and
cuddling together to watch the news or a funny show for a bit while
feeding each other a light snack and making small talk. After we turn
off the TV and pushed the chips aside, we would kiss each other for a
little while and then go to the bathroom to brush our teeth before
sleeping. I be the first one to doze off, being the one who is less
adapted to sleeping late. The next day, we wake up and we repeat the
process, details varying.
We would go on trips to restaurants that we had never been to before,
restaurants that we have visited and liked, and restaurants that had
just opened. We would have walks often in Central Park, over a bridge,
or next to a river. We would drag each other to different places, me
mostly to the shopping mall and him mostly to basketball games and
gyms.
I wish for a future like this, similar but not as dull. While all this
would happen, the ring on each of our left ring fingers would gleam in
the light. The words "love" and "devotion" being made clear to the world
while the "K<3S" engraved on the inside would be held closer to
ourselves than anything else.
I love you, Kevin. So much.
--mhshsho
only with him though, nobody else. I always dreamed about how peaceful
our life would be. I'm always thinking about our little studio together,
with nothing but a nice mattress in the room that was covered in messy
bedsheets and covers, a single beanbag chair, two laptops sitting on
stacks of textbooks and papers, a decently-sized HD TV, an inkjet
printer, and a large window to look out of. Nearby would be the kitchen,
neater than the main living space itself. When the two of us wake up, we
smile at each other and kiss each other. We would both get up at the
same time and scramble for the bathroom, first one there gets to hog.
After we finish yelling at each other to hand stuff over and to hurry
up, the one in the bathroom would finally open the door and let the
other in, sharing the bathroom peacefully. I would go and make
breakfast, whether it be a nice ham and egg sandwich or just popping a
bunch of waffles into the toaster. After getting dressed and eating, we
would give each other goodbye kisses and then leave for class.
Upon finishing up with classes, we would rush to each other for lunch,
have a good meal, then head off to work. I would be doing work-study or
supervising kids while he would be doing some heavy work at a store. I
would most likely get off work earlier than he would so I would go and
visit his job, give him a kiss, then head home to make dinner (not to
buy groceries or take-out). After he comes home and finishes eating, we
would take turns taking a bath/shower while the other did homework. We
would just continue to do our homework until we feel like sleeping,
turning on the TV and watching it blink while someone got a bag of chips
from the kitchen cabinet, pulling the covers over each other and
cuddling together to watch the news or a funny show for a bit while
feeding each other a light snack and making small talk. After we turn
off the TV and pushed the chips aside, we would kiss each other for a
little while and then go to the bathroom to brush our teeth before
sleeping. I be the first one to doze off, being the one who is less
adapted to sleeping late. The next day, we wake up and we repeat the
process, details varying.
We would go on trips to restaurants that we had never been to before,
restaurants that we have visited and liked, and restaurants that had
just opened. We would have walks often in Central Park, over a bridge,
or next to a river. We would drag each other to different places, me
mostly to the shopping mall and him mostly to basketball games and
gyms.
I wish for a future like this, similar but not as dull. While all this
would happen, the ring on each of our left ring fingers would gleam in
the light. The words "love" and "devotion" being made clear to the world
while the "K<3S" engraved on the inside would be held closer to
ourselves than anything else.
I love you, Kevin. So much.
--mhshsho
whats the point of having a formspring if you delete all the questions?
What's the point of being human if all you ever do is hate on people? Think about THAT, why don't you.
whats the point of having a formspring if you delete all the questions?
What's the point of being a human if all you do is hate on people? Thank about THAT, why don't you?
:3
I can't get over how much I love this damn ring.
I love it so much, but not even close to how much I love the girl who
got it for me. I love Sharon so much, I feel like I'm really letting
myself get loose and allowing myself to really get attached to her. I
hope she doesn't mind how attached I've been, she just really is that
perfect to me.
--netzfan4life
I love it so much, but not even close to how much I love the girl who
got it for me. I love Sharon so much, I feel like I'm really letting
myself get loose and allowing myself to really get attached to her. I
hope she doesn't mind how attached I've been, she just really is that
perfect to me.
--netzfan4life
Please?
My love is perfect in every way, shape, and form. Her personality and
appearance are second to none, but what gets to me is just how silly she
could be. Today, my love made a remark that kind of annoyed me and made
me feel... disappointed. She realized I was a tad aggravated and really
beat herself down afterwards. I hate when she does that... she's so
negative towards herself when she really has nothing to hate herself
for. I really hope one day she'll realize what a blessing she is to be
around, she really is so amazing.
But yeah, now it's time to rant.
She went on to say how she ALWAYS hurts me, ALWAYS makes me sad, and
ALWAYS makes me upset. My God, that's so untrue. She rarely upsets,
saddens, or hurts me, and when she does, I always get over it quickly,
(aside from one incident, but its over now) usually because of how happy
she makes me right afterward by just being her amazing self. She also
said how she could have made me the happiest if she always hurts me.
~PAUSE~
Wait, what? Is she seriously denying how happy she makes me? That girl
is crazy sometimes, no offense, babe. I have never smiled so much until
I got with her. I have never blushed so much until I got with her. I
have never laughed so much until I got with her. It really hurts to know
that she, the girl responsible for my overall sanity and happiness,
thinks she isn't making me happy enough. That girl makes me so fucking
happy, and I couldn't honestly say that I could never be happy with
anyone else. I'm addicted to the love that only Sharon could give me,
the love that I can't live without.
Baby, please believe me. Please believe me when I say that you barely
make me sad, and that you make me at least a million times happier than
upset. I love you so much. <3
--netzfan4life
appearance are second to none, but what gets to me is just how silly she
could be. Today, my love made a remark that kind of annoyed me and made
me feel... disappointed. She realized I was a tad aggravated and really
beat herself down afterwards. I hate when she does that... she's so
negative towards herself when she really has nothing to hate herself
for. I really hope one day she'll realize what a blessing she is to be
around, she really is so amazing.
But yeah, now it's time to rant.
She went on to say how she ALWAYS hurts me, ALWAYS makes me sad, and
ALWAYS makes me upset. My God, that's so untrue. She rarely upsets,
saddens, or hurts me, and when she does, I always get over it quickly,
(aside from one incident, but its over now) usually because of how happy
she makes me right afterward by just being her amazing self. She also
said how she could have made me the happiest if she always hurts me.
~PAUSE~
Wait, what? Is she seriously denying how happy she makes me? That girl
is crazy sometimes, no offense, babe. I have never smiled so much until
I got with her. I have never blushed so much until I got with her. I
have never laughed so much until I got with her. It really hurts to know
that she, the girl responsible for my overall sanity and happiness,
thinks she isn't making me happy enough. That girl makes me so fucking
happy, and I couldn't honestly say that I could never be happy with
anyone else. I'm addicted to the love that only Sharon could give me,
the love that I can't live without.
Baby, please believe me. Please believe me when I say that you barely
make me sad, and that you make me at least a million times happier than
upset. I love you so much. <3
--netzfan4life
<3
You're the best, you know that?
I felt terrible this morning because I couldn't get the money to take my
love to the movies like I had originally planned, and I simply hate
breaking plans, especially when its something that my love was really
looking forward to. I wondered if even seeing me was worth it for her,
because I really didn't know how I was going to entertain her, but hey,
let's just say the day turned out much better than expected, in fact, it
was so good that I could honestly say it was one of the better days of
my crappy life. I went into my love's place for maybe the 5th time?
Yeah, somewhere around there. Anyways, I went inside, got force fed some
dumplings, that were rather tasty, might I saw, and just got to hang out
while watching her scramble to get everything together before we left.
We walked from her place to battery park, where we made our way to a
Mcdonald's to get her the ice cream that we couldn't get the last time
we went there. I loved it so much. I love the little moments I get to
chat with Sharon. I love when we could just put everything aside and
talk. Both her and I smiled and laughed so much while we were there...
it was perfect... and I'll admit, most of the time, I was mesmerized by
her precious, light brown eyes... they're just so... indescribable.
But yeah, our fat selves decided to get some fries, a large AND a medium
to be precise, and nommed the holy hell out of each and every fry. Oh
yeah, did I mention how much damn salt and pepper that lady put on those
fries?! My love is so unhealthy at times... *sigh <3
After that, we sad on the bridge around BMCC, chatted some more, looked
up stuff on my phone, and fooled around. I swear, I have never had such
a good time. Probably the best part was just seeing how comfortable we
are with each other. My love always picks at my face no matter who's
around, and I always brush stuff off her face and make sure her teeth
are clean, even if we're outside. We're so damn comfortable together, we
could do whatever in front of everyone and it wouldn't phase us one bit.
I love this girl so much. But at around 4:30ish, we made our way home,
and made a shit load of jokes about our future together and how we'd
explain some things to our kids. Man, she had me dying. :3
Best.Day.Evar x3
And by the way, I simply loved her last post, especially the ending...
I'm so impatient, seriously... I can't wait until I won't have to say
ciao anymore... until the day we share the same bed and fall asleep in
one another's arms... I can't wait... <3
I love you so much, Sharon
--netzfan4life
I felt terrible this morning because I couldn't get the money to take my
love to the movies like I had originally planned, and I simply hate
breaking plans, especially when its something that my love was really
looking forward to. I wondered if even seeing me was worth it for her,
because I really didn't know how I was going to entertain her, but hey,
let's just say the day turned out much better than expected, in fact, it
was so good that I could honestly say it was one of the better days of
my crappy life. I went into my love's place for maybe the 5th time?
Yeah, somewhere around there. Anyways, I went inside, got force fed some
dumplings, that were rather tasty, might I saw, and just got to hang out
while watching her scramble to get everything together before we left.
We walked from her place to battery park, where we made our way to a
Mcdonald's to get her the ice cream that we couldn't get the last time
we went there. I loved it so much. I love the little moments I get to
chat with Sharon. I love when we could just put everything aside and
talk. Both her and I smiled and laughed so much while we were there...
it was perfect... and I'll admit, most of the time, I was mesmerized by
her precious, light brown eyes... they're just so... indescribable.
But yeah, our fat selves decided to get some fries, a large AND a medium
to be precise, and nommed the holy hell out of each and every fry. Oh
yeah, did I mention how much damn salt and pepper that lady put on those
fries?! My love is so unhealthy at times... *sigh <3
After that, we sad on the bridge around BMCC, chatted some more, looked
up stuff on my phone, and fooled around. I swear, I have never had such
a good time. Probably the best part was just seeing how comfortable we
are with each other. My love always picks at my face no matter who's
around, and I always brush stuff off her face and make sure her teeth
are clean, even if we're outside. We're so damn comfortable together, we
could do whatever in front of everyone and it wouldn't phase us one bit.
I love this girl so much. But at around 4:30ish, we made our way home,
and made a shit load of jokes about our future together and how we'd
explain some things to our kids. Man, she had me dying. :3
Best.Day.Evar x3
And by the way, I simply loved her last post, especially the ending...
I'm so impatient, seriously... I can't wait until I won't have to say
ciao anymore... until the day we share the same bed and fall asleep in
one another's arms... I can't wait... <3
I love you so much, Sharon
--netzfan4life
Sunday, May 30, 2010
Saturday, May 29, 2010
I love you.
I wasn't planning on blogging today, but I don't know, I guess I just
couldn't contain my feelings or something. Well anyways, here we go.
Scratch that, wait, first things first. Sharon and I have not been
wobbly at all. Not even close. All that happened was I found something
out that I didn't like and felt really hurt, and because of that she
became extremely upset and scared of me hating her and leaving her. now
this is between you and I, but I'm never, ever going to leave this love,
no matter what. Shhh, don't tell her. :3
But yeah, now here we go.
Sharon's sister called her because lately, we've been coming home a bit
later than we're supposed to. She started yelling at my poor love, and
even told her she wanted her to break up with me. When I heard this, my
heart just dropped. I know she wouldn't leave me, but just the thought
of her sister forcing up to part and me being unable to have that love
that I'm so addicted to seemed impossible to go through. I love Sharon
so much, hearing that her own sister wanted her to leave me was really
painful. I never want to let this love go.
I feel really bad that my love has so much drama going on within her
family and at school, I honestly wish that I could take her burden upon
my shoulders and deal with it for her, she's so damn amazing, she
doesn't deserve the shit she's put through.
But yeah, other than the shit my baby has to go through on pretty much a
daily basis, my life has been absolutely amazing, and I can honestly say
that it's all because of her. She's made me so happy lately, I can't
even go a minute without smiling like a total dork. She's so ideal to
me, everything about her is just so... I can't even describe it, she's
so amazing, it's truly indescribable. I love you babe, I've never been
so happy in my life. I want your love forever, I'm so happy that the
love I've waited three whole years for is actually mine. I swear I'll
never let it go, no matter what Salina, your mom, my mom, or anyone
says.
I love you. <3
--netzfan4life
couldn't contain my feelings or something. Well anyways, here we go.
Scratch that, wait, first things first. Sharon and I have not been
wobbly at all. Not even close. All that happened was I found something
out that I didn't like and felt really hurt, and because of that she
became extremely upset and scared of me hating her and leaving her. now
this is between you and I, but I'm never, ever going to leave this love,
no matter what. Shhh, don't tell her. :3
But yeah, now here we go.
Sharon's sister called her because lately, we've been coming home a bit
later than we're supposed to. She started yelling at my poor love, and
even told her she wanted her to break up with me. When I heard this, my
heart just dropped. I know she wouldn't leave me, but just the thought
of her sister forcing up to part and me being unable to have that love
that I'm so addicted to seemed impossible to go through. I love Sharon
so much, hearing that her own sister wanted her to leave me was really
painful. I never want to let this love go.
I feel really bad that my love has so much drama going on within her
family and at school, I honestly wish that I could take her burden upon
my shoulders and deal with it for her, she's so damn amazing, she
doesn't deserve the shit she's put through.
But yeah, other than the shit my baby has to go through on pretty much a
daily basis, my life has been absolutely amazing, and I can honestly say
that it's all because of her. She's made me so happy lately, I can't
even go a minute without smiling like a total dork. She's so ideal to
me, everything about her is just so... I can't even describe it, she's
so amazing, it's truly indescribable. I love you babe, I've never been
so happy in my life. I want your love forever, I'm so happy that the
love I've waited three whole years for is actually mine. I swear I'll
never let it go, no matter what Salina, your mom, my mom, or anyone
says.
I love you. <3
--netzfan4life
Ring.
I finally bought my love his ring yesterday. I got him to wear it today. I finally have something on him to show everyone that he belongs to me, nobody else. He's mine. Only mine. I know, I sound like a damn seagull right now. I don't think he minds and you shouldn't either. He just told me about an event that happened to him today and I got uber happy. I shall copy and paste that little section of the chat.
Kevin Walsh <3
=]
Kevin Walsh <3
=]
and something great happened today too.
Sharon Ho
hmm??
Kevin Walsh <3
hah.
Sharon Ho
hmm??
Kevin Walsh <3
hah.
I saw veronica >:]
Kevin Walsh <3
and guess what I had onnnnnnnn~
Kevin Walsh <3
and guess what I had onnnnnnnn~
>;D
Sharon Ho
hehe <3
Kevin Walsh <3
she looked all happy.
Sharon Ho
hehe <3
Kevin Walsh <3
she looked all happy.
smiling at me.
then
like the jerk I am
I kept scratching my chin with my left, making it mad obvious
she wasn't smiling anymore!
Hah!! I got so happy. I also laughed so very hard. He's so sweet towards me. x3
Today, we had a great day even though we didn't have that much time to be with each other and plans to see a movie had to be cancelled. He makes me so happy even though things don't go according to plan that often. Today, I was smiling so much, I had to make a "=/" expression because my face was getting sore. I didn't want him to see my frowny face so I just stopped looking at him for a while. At least now he knows since I said it here.
Anyways, most of the time that we were together, we were walking or we were sitting in McDonald's, munching on fries, an Oreo McFlurry, and chatting about stuff. I love those valuable moments with him where I get to just chat with him, no sexual stuff, no troubles, no worries. That moment was great already. What would have made it perfect would be if we were alone with each other in our own room, under the covers, feeding each other a snack or two, cuddling, chatting. Then, finally, when we start yawning and getting tired, I would fall asleep. He would fall asleep after me, after watching me sleep a little before setting his head down next to mine on a pillow and dozing off. If that were ever to happen, I would say that everything that happened to me in my life, every single shitty confrontation I had, would all be worth it. Everything would be absolutely worth it. I would call my life an accomplishment.
Best loss ever <3
I fucking love her <3
--netzfan4life
~*Sharon Edit*~
Yes, I did go and edit his post. Hehe ♥
In case you were wondering, the words on the ring says "Love" and "Devotion" from left to right. The inside, I had "K♥S" engraved.
Mail.
One of the things that I hate the most is when I come home and find my mail, whether it be important or not, ripped open and not only that, the envelope is half dead. It pisses me off badly. Apparently, people nowadays don't know that opening mail that does not belong to you is illegal. I'm so serious. I came home today and I found my mail, something that was extremely important to me, sitting on my desk, envelope destroyed. All my mail are usually opened neatly by me. I don't like the rough, uneven edges of the envelope when opened roughly and carelessly. Luckily, none of the contents were damaged. If they were, I would have done something extremely stupid to my parents.
The mail that I was talking about came from the National Youth Leadership Forum on National Security (NYLF/NS). I've been waiting for it ever since I got the notification letter from a man named Richard Holm, informing me that I was nominated to participate in this program and that all the information would be sent to me soon enough. I've been trying to decide if I should go to the NYLF/NS during the fall. It's expensive and my family is broke so I don't know... It's a good opportunity and all and it would look great on my records and resume but I don't know... Deadline is soon... What should I do?
Thursday, May 27, 2010
Bashing.
So... Today, right after my math class ended, I told San Pablo something. "Stay the fuck away from Kevin." I love Kevin from the bottom of my heart but I do not listen well. He had told me not to go and say anything to her at all but her face was irritating me during math class so I couldn't help it. I told Kevin and he laughed about it. He told me that I was so evil in a playful way and I smiled with him.
Now, I'm not in as much of a happy mood. Just a few moments ago, Kevin told me something. He told me that now that I said that to her, she would go after him even harder. I am PISSED OFF. There is no way in heaven, hell, earth, or fuck that I will let her. I told Kevin that if she doesn't get rid of her fat, ugly ass, I'd do it. I know that I can get in trouble for it but if it's the only way to get her the fuck out of our way, I will. If she does try to go after him harder, at least I know that I didn't tell her more clearly. If she tries to hit on Kevin, I will honestly be angry. The fact that she was the one who tried to get rid of him and hurt him on purpose for some I-don't-know-what stupid reasons and that she's trying to take him back. That's a bitch move. If she knew better, she would fuck the hell off because if I'm in a bad mood and she tries something, it wouldn't look too good. Only stupid shit comes from a stupid cunt and she is one hell of a stupid cunt. I am not in the mood to deal with her shit and the fucked up ways she thinks. I don't care who she thinks she is, where she comes from, or why she's doing this. All I know is that Kevin is dating me now, he loves me, and she has NOTHING to do with our relationship. Nothing. She is a complete nobody. Even Kevin admits it. He hates seeing her. He hates her face, her voice and the fact that she's around. He said that she irritates him. I don't know if he's lying to make me feel better or if he's telling me the truth but I don't care. He said it.
My love already told me. He loves my body 100% more than hers. He loves my personality 100% more than hers.
And yes, this is going to get a bit graphic but I want the world to know. I'm pretty sure a lot of you will start talking about this shit I say in school. As long as word gets around that I hate that bitch and she should fuck her ugly self off, it's all good.
So, Kevin told me just yesterday that my body was so much better looking than Natalia's because I was nicely proportioned. I was complaining about the size of my thighs and calves, by the way. So, he started telling me things. He told me that Natalia was flat-chested, had a big ass, had drooping fat in her stomach, and had a big head. He told me that I was a good kisser. He told me that he liked my body because my ass was nicely toned, my stomach was flat and fat-free, my eyes were beautiful and that he liked the muscles in my legs because even though the muscles made my legs look a bit bulky, my small hands and feet made up for it. He complimented me on my hands, which he said were soft but I didn't really agree that much. Well, he is always complimenting me, telling me that I'm the best and that I am perfect.
Other than that, I think that Natalia San Pablo should just fuck her bitchy ass self off. I really do. No offense to you if any of you are her friends but she's a bitch. You should realize the shit that she did to Kevin. I'm just saying.
Kevin, I love you.
Now, I'm not in as much of a happy mood. Just a few moments ago, Kevin told me something. He told me that now that I said that to her, she would go after him even harder. I am PISSED OFF. There is no way in heaven, hell, earth, or fuck that I will let her. I told Kevin that if she doesn't get rid of her fat, ugly ass, I'd do it. I know that I can get in trouble for it but if it's the only way to get her the fuck out of our way, I will. If she does try to go after him harder, at least I know that I didn't tell her more clearly. If she tries to hit on Kevin, I will honestly be angry. The fact that she was the one who tried to get rid of him and hurt him on purpose for some I-don't-know-what stupid reasons and that she's trying to take him back. That's a bitch move. If she knew better, she would fuck the hell off because if I'm in a bad mood and she tries something, it wouldn't look too good. Only stupid shit comes from a stupid cunt and she is one hell of a stupid cunt. I am not in the mood to deal with her shit and the fucked up ways she thinks. I don't care who she thinks she is, where she comes from, or why she's doing this. All I know is that Kevin is dating me now, he loves me, and she has NOTHING to do with our relationship. Nothing. She is a complete nobody. Even Kevin admits it. He hates seeing her. He hates her face, her voice and the fact that she's around. He said that she irritates him. I don't know if he's lying to make me feel better or if he's telling me the truth but I don't care. He said it.
My love already told me. He loves my body 100% more than hers. He loves my personality 100% more than hers.
And yes, this is going to get a bit graphic but I want the world to know. I'm pretty sure a lot of you will start talking about this shit I say in school. As long as word gets around that I hate that bitch and she should fuck her ugly self off, it's all good.
So, Kevin told me just yesterday that my body was so much better looking than Natalia's because I was nicely proportioned. I was complaining about the size of my thighs and calves, by the way. So, he started telling me things. He told me that Natalia was flat-chested, had a big ass, had drooping fat in her stomach, and had a big head. He told me that I was a good kisser. He told me that he liked my body because my ass was nicely toned, my stomach was flat and fat-free, my eyes were beautiful and that he liked the muscles in my legs because even though the muscles made my legs look a bit bulky, my small hands and feet made up for it. He complimented me on my hands, which he said were soft but I didn't really agree that much. Well, he is always complimenting me, telling me that I'm the best and that I am perfect.
Other than that, I think that Natalia San Pablo should just fuck her bitchy ass self off. I really do. No offense to you if any of you are her friends but she's a bitch. You should realize the shit that she did to Kevin. I'm just saying.
Kevin, I love you.
Happy Post.
So... Like Kevin said, lately we've been a bit wobbly together. We made up rather slowly because I didn't want to let go of the fact that I hurt him and the fact that he was upset.He made me laugh and we both got over it rather quickly. I know that I make it sound really casual and stuff but I think it was something that was rather major. I didn't like the fact that i hurt him at all because that just makes me think that I suck as a girlfriend even more, but whatever. Kevin is currently taking his final exam for... stat. I think. Yeah. I'm pretty sure it was for statistics. I just figured that since I had time while I waited for him, I might as well just go and make a post.
My next post is going to be me bashing Natalia San Pablo, the bitch-cunt who used to call herself Kevin's girlfriend.
~*EDIT*~
I am happy now. Kevin just finished reading my second post of the day and I LOVED his expressions. Gosh. This guy. ♥
My next post is going to be me bashing Natalia San Pablo, the bitch-cunt who used to call herself Kevin's girlfriend.
~*EDIT*~
I am happy now. Kevin just finished reading my second post of the day and I LOVED his expressions. Gosh. This guy. ♥
Healthy
I love how healthy my relationship with Sharon is. It's just absolutely
perfect in every single way. I say this because Sharon and I have
disagreements and misunderstanding, but we always find out way through
it and become even happier and closer once we make up.
Sharon and I, as you can see from the last few posts, have been upset
over something that she had lied about. We both got very emotional and
upset at both the situation and each other, making me feel sad and her
afraid of losing me. The next day, her and I cut the first 3 periods to
talk and spend time together, and it was still rather rocky. I was
silent, and she was crying. After some more talking, we both started
kissing, and I commented about how hard she was kissing me, and she
started laughing. After that, everything had healed once again. We
talked, cuddled, and kissed amongst the river side, just her and I,
happy again, together. I felt I was over it, I really did, we had gone
back to normal and we were even doing other... stuff... But I found out
later, that I wasn't over it at all.
After walking through SoHo together on our way to an open house at
American Apparel, we sat and hung out at Starbucks, trying to avoid her
older sister seeing us. While she went to the bathroom, I don't know
why, but I started thinking about it again. I got pissed off all over
again and she took notice. She kept asking me what was bugging me, and
after awhile, I told her I still wasn't over it. Once again, she became
silent and visibly upset. We talked it over again, and I became more
concerned with how she was feeling rather than how I wasn't over it, and
eventually she began to loosen up a bit again. She smiled and I went
with it, I kept on joking around and she would smile more and more.
Eventually, she said something silly, and to stop her from talking, I
kept kissing her. It didn't work so I just put my mouth over hers. She
found it funny and breathed right into my mouth, making my cheeks poof
up and me fly back. She found that part hilarious and started laughing
harder than I've ever seen her laugh before. It was a great sight. We
kept doing that and messing around and she kept laughing harder and
harder, so hard that she couldn't breathe and her back started to hurt.
I loved it, we were better once again and I couldn't be happier.
At around 6, we went to American Apparel and were ready to be
interviewed. We waited on line, chatting, cuddling and laughing together
the whole time. When we got towards the front of the line, she started
getting really nervous. I didn't think she should have been, I mean,
she's well spoken, smart, and looked absolutely gorgeous, but hey, she's
just a dork <3 we went in and out really quickly (that's what she said)
and walked around SoHo before going to her place. Since it was only
7:30, we stopped by our spot and hung out, just her and I, alone at
last. She was still really exhausted from the pre and post stress she
had from the interview, but we still had a good time together. We had a
really, really, really good time ;]
I love my Sharon. We get over anything and anything together, and at the
end, we only get stronger. <3
Btw love, I'm over it.
=]
--netzfan4life
perfect in every single way. I say this because Sharon and I have
disagreements and misunderstanding, but we always find out way through
it and become even happier and closer once we make up.
Sharon and I, as you can see from the last few posts, have been upset
over something that she had lied about. We both got very emotional and
upset at both the situation and each other, making me feel sad and her
afraid of losing me. The next day, her and I cut the first 3 periods to
talk and spend time together, and it was still rather rocky. I was
silent, and she was crying. After some more talking, we both started
kissing, and I commented about how hard she was kissing me, and she
started laughing. After that, everything had healed once again. We
talked, cuddled, and kissed amongst the river side, just her and I,
happy again, together. I felt I was over it, I really did, we had gone
back to normal and we were even doing other... stuff... But I found out
later, that I wasn't over it at all.
After walking through SoHo together on our way to an open house at
American Apparel, we sat and hung out at Starbucks, trying to avoid her
older sister seeing us. While she went to the bathroom, I don't know
why, but I started thinking about it again. I got pissed off all over
again and she took notice. She kept asking me what was bugging me, and
after awhile, I told her I still wasn't over it. Once again, she became
silent and visibly upset. We talked it over again, and I became more
concerned with how she was feeling rather than how I wasn't over it, and
eventually she began to loosen up a bit again. She smiled and I went
with it, I kept on joking around and she would smile more and more.
Eventually, she said something silly, and to stop her from talking, I
kept kissing her. It didn't work so I just put my mouth over hers. She
found it funny and breathed right into my mouth, making my cheeks poof
up and me fly back. She found that part hilarious and started laughing
harder than I've ever seen her laugh before. It was a great sight. We
kept doing that and messing around and she kept laughing harder and
harder, so hard that she couldn't breathe and her back started to hurt.
I loved it, we were better once again and I couldn't be happier.
At around 6, we went to American Apparel and were ready to be
interviewed. We waited on line, chatting, cuddling and laughing together
the whole time. When we got towards the front of the line, she started
getting really nervous. I didn't think she should have been, I mean,
she's well spoken, smart, and looked absolutely gorgeous, but hey, she's
just a dork <3 we went in and out really quickly (that's what she said)
and walked around SoHo before going to her place. Since it was only
7:30, we stopped by our spot and hung out, just her and I, alone at
last. She was still really exhausted from the pre and post stress she
had from the interview, but we still had a good time together. We had a
really, really, really good time ;]
I love my Sharon. We get over anything and anything together, and at the
end, we only get stronger. <3
Btw love, I'm over it.
=]
--netzfan4life
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
Sadness and make ups.
It really sucks that I've decided to post so late. My love has been
making me so happy, happier than I've ever been in my life. I swear,
I've never been so smiley, and it's all been because of her. What sucks
is that I'm posting on a day where a bit of drama has made me really
sad, so this piece won't show exactly how great my love and I have been
recently. Today, while me and my love were talking on the train,
something slipped up. I can't say what, but she lied to me about a very
touchy subject, needless to say, I was devastated. I've never been so
hurt in my life, I was so upset when I heard what she had told me. I
swear I felt like I wanted to die. Sharon know I was upset and became
upset herself, and stopped talking to me for a bit. She cried and I kept
asking her what was wrong, she wouldn't tell me. After some more
badgering, she finally told me. She said that she was afraid of me,
afraid I would hit her or yell. I got a bit upset, I would never hit or
yell at her, I'd never do anything to hurt her. I had found out her ex
hit her before after asking. If I ever see him, he's dead. Anyways, she
also said how she wanted to kill herself because I didn't love her, so
there wasn't a point in her living. I couldn't believe she said that, I
love that girl so damn much and she seriously thought I didn't love her.
I can't get into detail, but my poor love cried a lot and was scared to
death that I was going to leave her, I hated her, and that didn't love
her anymore. She's so silly, I'd never hate her, I'd die before I left
her, and even if I tried, I could never stop loving her. I love her so
much, I want her to be mine forever, I want her to mother my children,
I want to live with her and start a life with her. Love, I won't lie,
you hurt me more than I've ever been hurt before, but I still love you
the same as I did before, I could never love you less, hun. You're the
best thing to ever happen to me and I'm never letting go.
I love you, Sharon
I really hope this didn't effect us... I hope we stay the same
together... <3
making me so happy, happier than I've ever been in my life. I swear,
I've never been so smiley, and it's all been because of her. What sucks
is that I'm posting on a day where a bit of drama has made me really
sad, so this piece won't show exactly how great my love and I have been
recently. Today, while me and my love were talking on the train,
something slipped up. I can't say what, but she lied to me about a very
touchy subject, needless to say, I was devastated. I've never been so
hurt in my life, I was so upset when I heard what she had told me. I
swear I felt like I wanted to die. Sharon know I was upset and became
upset herself, and stopped talking to me for a bit. She cried and I kept
asking her what was wrong, she wouldn't tell me. After some more
badgering, she finally told me. She said that she was afraid of me,
afraid I would hit her or yell. I got a bit upset, I would never hit or
yell at her, I'd never do anything to hurt her. I had found out her ex
hit her before after asking. If I ever see him, he's dead. Anyways, she
also said how she wanted to kill herself because I didn't love her, so
there wasn't a point in her living. I couldn't believe she said that, I
love that girl so damn much and she seriously thought I didn't love her.
I can't get into detail, but my poor love cried a lot and was scared to
death that I was going to leave her, I hated her, and that didn't love
her anymore. She's so silly, I'd never hate her, I'd die before I left
her, and even if I tried, I could never stop loving her. I love her so
much, I want her to be mine forever, I want her to mother my children,
I want to live with her and start a life with her. Love, I won't lie,
you hurt me more than I've ever been hurt before, but I still love you
the same as I did before, I could never love you less, hun. You're the
best thing to ever happen to me and I'm never letting go.
I love you, Sharon
I really hope this didn't effect us... I hope we stay the same
together... <3
By the way, I want all of you readers to know, one day, I will marry
this girl x3
just sayin'
--netzfan4life
Reasons.
I don't get it. How? Why?
I just don't get it.
I love you so much but I always hurt you in some way. Why do you still love me? Why do you still care? Do you really trust me? Do you really believe the things I say?
I don't get it.
All I know is that I love you a lot but I keep hurting you.
I'm sorry. I'm sorry for lying. I'm sorry for this. I'm sorry I'm such an idiot. I'm sorry I'm like this. I'm sorry for being a bitch. I'm sorry for being such a liar. I'm sorry for being such a pain. I'm sorry for being a slut. I'm sorry for being like this. I'm really sorry.
I really don't blame you if you hate me, if you want to get rid of me, if you don't care anymore. I don't mind. It was all my fault and I admit it. You can do anything to me, I don't mind.
I'm sorry.
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
I want a piece of you, for me.
Let me say this loud and clear,
I love Sharon and only Sharon, and that isn't ever going to change,
alright? She's the one for me and she knows it, and I want everyone else
to know it as well.
Anyways, for some reason, a lot of girls have been attracted to me and
wanting me, mainly for my looks. I don't know what they see, I don't
think I'm attractive at all and normal looking at best, but whatever,
women are weird. Today when I went to Dunkin Donuts on Houston, there
was a group of High School girls messing around with the cashier. They
were yelling and joking with him, while trying to get me involved with
their games. I just laughed and shook my head. They continued and I kept
laughing, pretending like I was paying attention while drinking my
milkshake. While the group was leaving, an Asian girl who was with them
decided to mention me, saying, "Oh this guy just watched us the whole
time" and laughed, while trying to take a look at my face, since I had
my hood on. When she saw me, she put her hands over her face and said,
"oh my God, he's really cute" before running away. she wasn't too ugly,
a bit chubby, but not terrible, but not even close to as gorgeous as my
beloved Sharon. I was a bit flattered and just kept drinking my shake,
when her friends ran to her. They chatted for a second before one of her
friend sits beside me. She tells me how her friend thought I was really
hot and how she wanted to see me. I just stared. She asked if I was
interested and said I should go talk to her. I said, "no, sorry, I'm
taken." They misunderstood? She kept saying how I should talk to her
friend because I was hot and she likes hot guys and is cool and blah
blah blah. All I kept saying was that I'm taken. They finally realized I
was taken after 5 minutes and she yelled, "Sorry, he's taken!" before
leaving. That kind of pissed me off because they wouldn't take no for an
answer. I wish I had something of Sharon's to symbolize that I'm hers. I
want something to show these girls that I'd never be in no way shape or
form, interested in them, simply because they're not Sharon. She said
how she wanted to get me a promise ring like I got her, and I'd love
that, I'd wear it everywhere to have my love traveling with me wherever
I go, I just hope she'd get it for me soon. She really gets upset when
girls hit on me, it stresses her out and I hate that.
I love you, babe.
Always and forever, you're the one and you know it.
--netzfan4life
I love Sharon and only Sharon, and that isn't ever going to change,
alright? She's the one for me and she knows it, and I want everyone else
to know it as well.
Anyways, for some reason, a lot of girls have been attracted to me and
wanting me, mainly for my looks. I don't know what they see, I don't
think I'm attractive at all and normal looking at best, but whatever,
women are weird. Today when I went to Dunkin Donuts on Houston, there
was a group of High School girls messing around with the cashier. They
were yelling and joking with him, while trying to get me involved with
their games. I just laughed and shook my head. They continued and I kept
laughing, pretending like I was paying attention while drinking my
milkshake. While the group was leaving, an Asian girl who was with them
decided to mention me, saying, "Oh this guy just watched us the whole
time" and laughed, while trying to take a look at my face, since I had
my hood on. When she saw me, she put her hands over her face and said,
"oh my God, he's really cute" before running away. she wasn't too ugly,
a bit chubby, but not terrible, but not even close to as gorgeous as my
beloved Sharon. I was a bit flattered and just kept drinking my shake,
when her friends ran to her. They chatted for a second before one of her
friend sits beside me. She tells me how her friend thought I was really
hot and how she wanted to see me. I just stared. She asked if I was
interested and said I should go talk to her. I said, "no, sorry, I'm
taken." They misunderstood? She kept saying how I should talk to her
friend because I was hot and she likes hot guys and is cool and blah
blah blah. All I kept saying was that I'm taken. They finally realized I
was taken after 5 minutes and she yelled, "Sorry, he's taken!" before
leaving. That kind of pissed me off because they wouldn't take no for an
answer. I wish I had something of Sharon's to symbolize that I'm hers. I
want something to show these girls that I'd never be in no way shape or
form, interested in them, simply because they're not Sharon. She said
how she wanted to get me a promise ring like I got her, and I'd love
that, I'd wear it everywhere to have my love traveling with me wherever
I go, I just hope she'd get it for me soon. She really gets upset when
girls hit on me, it stresses her out and I hate that.
I love you, babe.
Always and forever, you're the one and you know it.
--netzfan4life
Monday, May 17, 2010
Friday, May 14, 2010
A note for you, my beloved
I wrote my love a note today while she was in class because I missed her insanely, and because I wanted to remind her how much she means to me and to let her know what her sweet kisses do to my <3
By the way, if you're reading this, I'm sorry about everything. I haven't been keeping my promise about not upsetting you, and I hate every second of it. I hate when you frown, and I hate upsetting you, I don't mean to, I'm just stupid. I'll do whatever it takes to be the perfect boyfriend, the one you deserve <3
Anyways, here's the post =]
I don't know if I should put this on the blog, so I'll just write it here for you, love, because I really want you to know exactly how your kisses affect me.
Sharon... where should I even begin? I've longed to feel your soft little pink lips caressing mine since the first day I was lucky enough to see your beautiful face. I'll never forget the feeling that I had felt when I first looked at you. You were just so beautiful... your little cheeks, cute small chin, perfectly sized and shaped nose, breathtakingly big asian eyes that just mesmorize me whenever I see the light reflecting on them... you were just so ideal. I had always watched you from afar, scanning your beauty from head to toe, and day dreaming about the day I'd be lucky enough to share a loving kiss with you. I can't even say how glad and ecstatic I am that my dreams actually came true.<3
Years passed and I saw you with two different guys, secretly envying both of them for the simple fact that they had my angel in their arms. I couldn't get over the way they treated you, the unhappy look on your face I'd constantly see while you were with them, I wanted to be the one to end that and put that beautiful smile on your face that I love so much. Man... even writing these memories gets me a bit jealous... I wanted you so badly... I wanted you to be mine and only mine for so long.
Yes, I had different girlfriends, but as much off a jerk as I'll sound like, even while with them, you, my love, were always the number one girl in my eyes. You would be the girl I'd stare at even if the girl was around you. Your hug would be the hug I would come to school for, and your kiss was the one I really longed for...
I had always imagined how your kiss would feel, how it'd taste, and I always thought that your kisses would make me feel the most dizzy, and the most loved, boy was I right. That snow day, the day where we practically told each other that we liked each other without actually saying it, was one of the best days of my life. Whenever I even think of that kiss, though it took me some time to do it, I could still feel my lips tingle, it was just that perfect. I remember feeling happy, yet terrified because I really didn't know if you wanted it or not, but I was still glad that I had finally, finally gotten to feel your lips... the lips of an angel <3
Since that day, we've kissed nonstop and each one gets better and better. Every kiss makes my knees weak, each time I feel yourlips against mine I feel nothing but absolute bliss. When I imagined your kiss, I knew it'd be good, but hell, I had no idea it'd make me so goddamn dizzy. You're such a great kisser, love, I can't say it enough. I always long for your kisses whenever I'm without you, and I always want more whenever I actually am kissing you. After kissing you, my love, I could never, ever kiss another girl. I love your lips, and you, hun so so much. <3
By the way, if you're reading this, I'm sorry about everything. I haven't been keeping my promise about not upsetting you, and I hate every second of it. I hate when you frown, and I hate upsetting you, I don't mean to, I'm just stupid. I'll do whatever it takes to be the perfect boyfriend, the one you deserve <3
Anyways, here's the post =]
I don't know if I should put this on the blog, so I'll just write it here for you, love, because I really want you to know exactly how your kisses affect me.
Sharon... where should I even begin? I've longed to feel your soft little pink lips caressing mine since the first day I was lucky enough to see your beautiful face. I'll never forget the feeling that I had felt when I first looked at you. You were just so beautiful... your little cheeks, cute small chin, perfectly sized and shaped nose, breathtakingly big asian eyes that just mesmorize me whenever I see the light reflecting on them... you were just so ideal. I had always watched you from afar, scanning your beauty from head to toe, and day dreaming about the day I'd be lucky enough to share a loving kiss with you. I can't even say how glad and ecstatic I am that my dreams actually came true.<3
Years passed and I saw you with two different guys, secretly envying both of them for the simple fact that they had my angel in their arms. I couldn't get over the way they treated you, the unhappy look on your face I'd constantly see while you were with them, I wanted to be the one to end that and put that beautiful smile on your face that I love so much. Man... even writing these memories gets me a bit jealous... I wanted you so badly... I wanted you to be mine and only mine for so long.
Yes, I had different girlfriends, but as much off a jerk as I'll sound like, even while with them, you, my love, were always the number one girl in my eyes. You would be the girl I'd stare at even if the girl was around you. Your hug would be the hug I would come to school for, and your kiss was the one I really longed for...
I had always imagined how your kiss would feel, how it'd taste, and I always thought that your kisses would make me feel the most dizzy, and the most loved, boy was I right. That snow day, the day where we practically told each other that we liked each other without actually saying it, was one of the best days of my life. Whenever I even think of that kiss, though it took me some time to do it, I could still feel my lips tingle, it was just that perfect. I remember feeling happy, yet terrified because I really didn't know if you wanted it or not, but I was still glad that I had finally, finally gotten to feel your lips... the lips of an angel <3
Since that day, we've kissed nonstop and each one gets better and better. Every kiss makes my knees weak, each time I feel yourlips against mine I feel nothing but absolute bliss. When I imagined your kiss, I knew it'd be good, but hell, I had no idea it'd make me so goddamn dizzy. You're such a great kisser, love, I can't say it enough. I always long for your kisses whenever I'm without you, and I always want more whenever I actually am kissing you. After kissing you, my love, I could never, ever kiss another girl. I love your lips, and you, hun so so much. <3
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
Moods.
Since I'm in a bad mood and my legs hurt anyways, I'll just rant.
There's a certain someone who keeps harassing my love. It ticks me off. Badly. Just saying, hop the fuck off and get the fuck out. You're not welcome here. He's mine and will forever be mine. So keep your stupid hands to yourself and go play with yourself or some shit.
There's a certain someone who keeps harassing my love. It ticks me off. Badly. Just saying, hop the fuck off and get the fuck out. You're not welcome here. He's mine and will forever be mine. So keep your stupid hands to yourself and go play with yourself or some shit.
Mine mine mine
Rofl @ Sharon's first paragraph of the post below. She's so gangsta... I love it so much. I swear, for such a small package, she sure is feisty ;DDD
It's been awhile since I've posted, but trust me, I have a lot to say, and you've guessed it! It's all about my beloved princess, whom I've been with for officially three months today. I'm serious when I say that three months have never gone so fast, I don't know, but it all seems like a blurr. She's so perfect, I couldn't even dream of having a girl this amazing. She's everything and more that I've ever looked for, she's caring, sweet, generous, a bit modest, funny, has a sense of humor, good taste in music, smart,(hope your SAT scores are what you wanted, loveeee~) and ridiculously beautiful. I'll stop there because making a list about her and what I love about her would surely go on forever. <3
Though it's been three months, we've done so much together. There's never been a dull moment. We're always trying new things, whether it be foods or places, and for some reason I've noticed that everything is better when with her. We're always smiling, giggling, and of course, hugging and kissing. My gawsh, so many people have told us to get a room... xDDD
I want this love forever, no questions asked. She's all I want and all I'll ever need. I know that I could never be this happy with anyone else, which is why I could never live without the love only a girl as dreamy as Sharon could give me. I've always wanted her love, though many don't know that. I always admired her from afar, and I had liked her and wanted to be with her so much at one point that it actually really hurt. Just the thought of not being able to have her and being stuck with someone else, meanwhile she was always the girl on my mind made me sick to my stomach. I wanted her so badly... I longed for her touch... wished for her kiss, and now that I have it, you've got to be a damned fool if you think I'm ever going to let it go.
I love you, Sharon.
You are the light of my life, my sunshine; you're my everything and I just can't see myself without you by my side <3
It's been awhile since I've posted, but trust me, I have a lot to say, and you've guessed it! It's all about my beloved princess, whom I've been with for officially three months today. I'm serious when I say that three months have never gone so fast, I don't know, but it all seems like a blurr. She's so perfect, I couldn't even dream of having a girl this amazing. She's everything and more that I've ever looked for, she's caring, sweet, generous, a bit modest, funny, has a sense of humor, good taste in music, smart,(hope your SAT scores are what you wanted, loveeee~) and ridiculously beautiful. I'll stop there because making a list about her and what I love about her would surely go on forever. <3
Though it's been three months, we've done so much together. There's never been a dull moment. We're always trying new things, whether it be foods or places, and for some reason I've noticed that everything is better when with her. We're always smiling, giggling, and of course, hugging and kissing. My gawsh, so many people have told us to get a room... xDDD
I want this love forever, no questions asked. She's all I want and all I'll ever need. I know that I could never be this happy with anyone else, which is why I could never live without the love only a girl as dreamy as Sharon could give me. I've always wanted her love, though many don't know that. I always admired her from afar, and I had liked her and wanted to be with her so much at one point that it actually really hurt. Just the thought of not being able to have her and being stuck with someone else, meanwhile she was always the girl on my mind made me sick to my stomach. I wanted her so badly... I longed for her touch... wished for her kiss, and now that I have it, you've got to be a damned fool if you think I'm ever going to let it go.
I love you, Sharon.
You are the light of my life, my sunshine; you're my everything and I just can't see myself without you by my side <3
Post already, mister.
Yes, I am still waiting for him to put up a post so that I could read it. I wanna read a new post from him~!! I don't know why, I just do. :D
Posting.
Alright people, I know that many of the people who read my blog are from the school and shit and I really don't care. I like making this shit public so to the people like Shafiul, shut the fuck up. I already know everyone reads my blog. Guess what bitch. I don't give a fuck. Have a crappy life, bitch.
Anyways... My stupid, stupid love! He said that he would do a blog post today... But he didn't~!! I miss reading his posts... They always make me smile or make me feel all fluffy and stuff inside. Makes me go ♥.
So... today, I told my older sister that I needed the sponsor money from her by tonight since Kathe needed the registration forms and stuff from the walkers by tomorrow. My sister asked my mom to give me the fifty and that she would pay my mom back but my mother, being the cheap-ass bitch that she is, decided to argue with my older sister and say that she wouldn't give anything over a twenty. Really? Really? This woman is the cheapest bitch I have met in my entire life. This shit is unbelievable. This woman has no respect for causes of any kind, let alone any respect for living beings. Hell, I bet if I brought home a cute little kitten that was starving to death on the streets, the bitch would literally open the window and throw it out. Thinking about kittens like that and the fact that this woman has no respect for life makes me want to cry. How the hell am I born to such cheap and disrespectful parents? I really do not understand this shit.
Shit aside, today marks the third month anniversary of mine. That is, my anniversary with Kevin. I think that counting the months is a bit useless. If the two of us wanted to count, I suggested to him that he count by half years or just by plain years. There's no way I'm letting go of this love. He brought me back from the depths of my "suicidalism" and those countless days of hell that I have to live through at home. Honestly, this guy's a complete darling. He's all sweet and generous and all. Sometimes, it's a bit much but he's still really... lovable. Kevin's gonna blush when he reads this but hah!! I'm still gonna say it.
The last three months have basically been months of bliss, considering I was a little less short-tempered and stuff than usual. Oh, I just read my love's AIM status and in case none of the rest of you did, this is what it says:
Sharon Ho 21210 happy 3 months loveee~!!! :D and on a side note, we've already lasted longer than you and still haven't had any fights or even thoughts about a break up, so hah ;DD
I laughed when I read that. I told you he makes me smile. =]
Anyways, I'm off now to badger him into posting.
Saturday, May 8, 2010
Where are you?
I'm crying so hard right now... I lost contact with my love for at least
6 hours now and I don't know why... I miss him... I'm so worried...
somebody, please tell me where he is. Please tell me he's ok. I can't
take it... he's not here and I don't know where he is or what he's
doing. The last time he said anything to me was at 3:37 this
afternoon... I'm seriously so worried...
--mhshsho
6 hours now and I don't know why... I miss him... I'm so worried...
somebody, please tell me where he is. Please tell me he's ok. I can't
take it... he's not here and I don't know where he is or what he's
doing. The last time he said anything to me was at 3:37 this
afternoon... I'm seriously so worried...
--mhshsho
Thursday, May 6, 2010
Crown J - 그녀를 뺏겠습니다 (I Will Take Her Away)
I’m gonna take her away
I might really die
Waiting for you two to break up
I might die first
To her man who has everything in the world
These words I say may be a bit
Oh no, you know, come on
I might really die
Waiting for you two to break up
I might die first
To her man who has everything in the world
These words I say may be a bit
Oh no, you know, come on
First, an introduction
What up man?
My name is Crown J
I came here to find my true love
I spent considerable effort looking for her
And there she is looking sad
next to a man that is not me.
Touching a girl that has a boyfriend is a foul
I know, and I spend every night
trying to forget her right now
But how
Even for one minute, one second
she won’t leave my mind
It doesn’t do what I want it to do,
My feelings win, I’m down
I’m sorry
But I can’t bear to see her sad anymore
My apologies
But imma draw her to me that’s what imma do
I will hold the girl
that shines brighter than the sun
The more I look and look
I just don’t understand man
You make her cry
And spend your nights with alcohol but not her
Birthdays, anniversaries, no need to say
Before she starts hating all the men in the world
What up man?
My name is Crown J
I came here to find my true love
I spent considerable effort looking for her
And there she is looking sad
next to a man that is not me.
Touching a girl that has a boyfriend is a foul
I know, and I spend every night
trying to forget her right now
But how
Even for one minute, one second
she won’t leave my mind
It doesn’t do what I want it to do,
My feelings win, I’m down
I’m sorry
But I can’t bear to see her sad anymore
My apologies
But imma draw her to me that’s what imma do
I will hold the girl
that shines brighter than the sun
The more I look and look
I just don’t understand man
You make her cry
And spend your nights with alcohol but not her
Birthdays, anniversaries, no need to say
Before she starts hating all the men in the world
I’m gonna take her away
I might really die
Waiting for you two to break up
I might die first
To her man who has everything in the world
These words I say may be a bit
Oh no, you know, come on
I might really die
Waiting for you two to break up
I might die first
To her man who has everything in the world
These words I say may be a bit
Oh no, you know, come on
Hey shawty, excuse me miss
Before you go tonight give me a kiss
I will kiss you in your loneliness
An angel that lost its wings is sitting next to me
Relax baby girl
You know I’m here for you
I’m your lover
Your comfortable friend
A giving tree
When thinking of you a day goes in 5 minutes
In other words, baby I love you
I’m sorry
That I came to you so late
I give thanks
To the sky that let me meet you
You are precious, in the rain or show
I will protect you
The more I see you
I just don’t understand girl
You are my Cinderella and I
Am your lost glass slipper and I
Wear me and come running towards me
Before you go tonight give me a kiss
I will kiss you in your loneliness
An angel that lost its wings is sitting next to me
Relax baby girl
You know I’m here for you
I’m your lover
Your comfortable friend
A giving tree
When thinking of you a day goes in 5 minutes
In other words, baby I love you
I’m sorry
That I came to you so late
I give thanks
To the sky that let me meet you
You are precious, in the rain or show
I will protect you
The more I see you
I just don’t understand girl
You are my Cinderella and I
Am your lost glass slipper and I
Wear me and come running towards me
I’m gonna take her away
I might really die
Waiting for you two to break up
I might die first
To her man who has everything in the world
These words I say may be a bit
Oh no, you know, come on
I might really die
Waiting for you two to break up
I might die first
To her man who has everything in the world
These words I say may be a bit
Oh no, you know, come on
If the girl I loved was happy
I wouldn’t even think about this
But even if I think things over
This decision is now set in stone
My apologies to her man but
I’m going to take her away
I’ll swoop down and take your breath away
Many nights I spent alone
Wanting you
This song is filled with my feelings for you
But compared to my feelings this song is short
Even if I look at the sky
Even if I look at the time
Until the time comes where you come to me
I will stop time for you right at this moment
I wouldn’t even think about this
But even if I think things over
This decision is now set in stone
My apologies to her man but
I’m going to take her away
I’ll swoop down and take your breath away
Many nights I spent alone
Wanting you
This song is filled with my feelings for you
But compared to my feelings this song is short
Even if I look at the sky
Even if I look at the time
Until the time comes where you come to me
I will stop time for you right at this moment
I’m gonna take her away
I might really die
Waiting for you two to break up
I might die first
To her man who has everything in the world
These words may be a bit,
Oh no, you know, come on
I’m gonna take her away
I might really die
Waiting for you two to break up
I might die first
To her man who has everything in the world
These words I say may be a bit
Oh no, you know,
I might really die
Waiting for you two to break up
I might die first
To her man who has everything in the world
These words may be a bit,
Oh no, you know, come on
I’m gonna take her away
I might really die
Waiting for you two to break up
I might die first
To her man who has everything in the world
These words I say may be a bit
Oh no, you know,
That’s just my style
I couldn't help but post this song up. It's basically pretty much the same exact things that went through my head as I watched my love in someone else's arms. She never looked happy, she always was mistreated and not valued like the princess she is. I always thought to myself if I was ever able to sweep that beautiful little porcelain doll off her feet, I'd die to make her smile. I'd do anything for her and try to make her as happy as she could possibly be, because she truly deserves the world.
Also, I love this one line so much, "Before you go tonight give me a kiss I will kiss you in your loneliness" Whenever I read that, it reminds me of that magically, tingling feeling i had floating around my body when I kissed her that snowy February day. I love you, hun
So, so much <3
Wednesday, May 5, 2010
I wish I didn't care so much
Today, after some brief moments, my love and I tok the bus to get her to
school. While on the bus, she showed me her diary and said how she wrote
a post a few days ago, and I asked to take a look. She said yes, and I
liked what I read, it made me smile. She said how she broke up with
Iftekher and got with me, and then gave a little description of our snow
day, which was pretty cute. I always love when my love writes about us,
though she doesn't really anymore...
Feeling curious, I decided to snoop a bit and found somethings I didn't
like as much. She had a ton of entries about her ex and each one made me
more upset than the last. I hated it, I hated how she described her
feelings for him, it literally drove me crazy, and Sharon took notice.
She got a bit upset because I promised that I wouldn't get mad, but I
did. I don't know... I'm a really jealous guy and seeing what she said
about him and what they did hurt me a lot. I began to think that maybe
she loved him more than she loves me, that I wasn't that special after
all, and that I really wasn't that love she had never had before. Even
writing about this makes me upset.
But yeah, I didn't tell her this, but I noticed how she used a lot more
love and emotion when writing about him in comparison to writing about
me. She'd say how much she loved him and ect. But when she was posting
about me, she barely even described me at all, she didn't say she loved
me or what I meant to her. It hurt, I think that might have hurt more
than anything. Thinking about it, she wrote more about him more in my
opinion. She said that its because she doesn't have time and how she'd
write because she was bored and he didn't do much, but I don't know, I
wish she'd write more about me if she really does love me more than she
loved him, but hey, if she doesn't want to, I'm not gonna force her.
I should probably stop now, I know she's gonna wind up getting sad after
reading this anyways, and I don't really want that. I just hope that she
reads this after we hang out later, I really don't want this messing
anything up, it's such a beautiful day and I hate seeing my beautiful
love frown on days like this, or any day in general as a matter of
fact.
I love you, hun. Please don't get upset or think I'm upset... well I
kinda am, but I'll get over it, it's just what I see and feel... damn,
she's made me too emotional -.-"
--mhshsho
school. While on the bus, she showed me her diary and said how she wrote
a post a few days ago, and I asked to take a look. She said yes, and I
liked what I read, it made me smile. She said how she broke up with
Iftekher and got with me, and then gave a little description of our snow
day, which was pretty cute. I always love when my love writes about us,
though she doesn't really anymore...
Feeling curious, I decided to snoop a bit and found somethings I didn't
like as much. She had a ton of entries about her ex and each one made me
more upset than the last. I hated it, I hated how she described her
feelings for him, it literally drove me crazy, and Sharon took notice.
She got a bit upset because I promised that I wouldn't get mad, but I
did. I don't know... I'm a really jealous guy and seeing what she said
about him and what they did hurt me a lot. I began to think that maybe
she loved him more than she loves me, that I wasn't that special after
all, and that I really wasn't that love she had never had before. Even
writing about this makes me upset.
But yeah, I didn't tell her this, but I noticed how she used a lot more
love and emotion when writing about him in comparison to writing about
me. She'd say how much she loved him and ect. But when she was posting
about me, she barely even described me at all, she didn't say she loved
me or what I meant to her. It hurt, I think that might have hurt more
than anything. Thinking about it, she wrote more about him more in my
opinion. She said that its because she doesn't have time and how she'd
write because she was bored and he didn't do much, but I don't know, I
wish she'd write more about me if she really does love me more than she
loved him, but hey, if she doesn't want to, I'm not gonna force her.
I should probably stop now, I know she's gonna wind up getting sad after
reading this anyways, and I don't really want that. I just hope that she
reads this after we hang out later, I really don't want this messing
anything up, it's such a beautiful day and I hate seeing my beautiful
love frown on days like this, or any day in general as a matter of
fact.
I love you, hun. Please don't get upset or think I'm upset... well I
kinda am, but I'll get over it, it's just what I see and feel... damn,
she's made me too emotional -.-"
--mhshsho
Monday, May 3, 2010
O.O x2
I was talking to sharon and all of a sudden she takes a pringle and
goes.
"OOOOOOOMMMMMMMMMMM"
It was ku. <3
--mhshsho
goes.
"OOOOOOOMMMMMMMMMMM"
It was ku. <3
--mhshsho
I can't help it, I just love you.
My phone died, so I'm using my love's account to post this note. I
promised you that I won't keep anything from you, so I'll spil my guts
right here, right now. For you and everyone to see.
Well, here goes:
Sharon, I've felt like such a bad boyfriend the last few days. I feel
like such an asshole because you're going through so damn much, more
than a girl as amazing as you deserves, yet all I'm doing is being
worried for no reason and making you even more stressed, meanwhile I'm
the one who's supposed to relieve your stress. Love, I don't mean to
have sounded over protective, but I was just worried. I don't know, even
though I shouldn't worry, but I can't help it, I can't help but feel
weird that someone who is obsessed and want to steal you is talking to
you again. I wasn't saying not to talk to you, trust me, I'd never want
to restrict you or anything, I was just letting you know how I felt, I
didn't mean to seem like I was being over protective. I love you so
much.
I'm a bit scared that I'm gonna wind up pushing her away with my worries
and everything because of the way I say things, but hun, trust me, I'm
not telling you to do something you don't want to, I'm just letting you
know how I feel because you want me to be more emotional, and I can't
help but admit that you've turned me into a hopeless romantic, and I
can't help but say that I like it <3
I'd never want to push you away... I really do want to be yours until
the end of time, I want you to have our children, I want that cat,
though I'll be a jerk at times and you'll beat me up, I want to take you
away from your family and move in with you to protect you from all of
the evil that makes you upset, I want everything with you.
Love, just get this, I don't like you talking to him, but it doesn't
mean I'm being over protective or that I'll force you to stop, all I was
doing was saying how I thought, and I'm sorry for stressing you out.
Oh yeah, and so sorry about being so late and confused after the SAT's,
so much shit happened with my mom because of her being pissed at me that
I couldn't help but be late and make you wait. I'll try my hardest to
avoid that from ever happening again.
Okay, I'm done now.
I'm sorry.
I love you so much
I don't mean to seem so protective and jealous at times, I just love you
so much and can't help it.
And most of all.
I trust you, if I didn't, I wouldn't have given you my heart <3
--mhshsho
promised you that I won't keep anything from you, so I'll spil my guts
right here, right now. For you and everyone to see.
Well, here goes:
Sharon, I've felt like such a bad boyfriend the last few days. I feel
like such an asshole because you're going through so damn much, more
than a girl as amazing as you deserves, yet all I'm doing is being
worried for no reason and making you even more stressed, meanwhile I'm
the one who's supposed to relieve your stress. Love, I don't mean to
have sounded over protective, but I was just worried. I don't know, even
though I shouldn't worry, but I can't help it, I can't help but feel
weird that someone who is obsessed and want to steal you is talking to
you again. I wasn't saying not to talk to you, trust me, I'd never want
to restrict you or anything, I was just letting you know how I felt, I
didn't mean to seem like I was being over protective. I love you so
much.
I'm a bit scared that I'm gonna wind up pushing her away with my worries
and everything because of the way I say things, but hun, trust me, I'm
not telling you to do something you don't want to, I'm just letting you
know how I feel because you want me to be more emotional, and I can't
help but admit that you've turned me into a hopeless romantic, and I
can't help but say that I like it <3
I'd never want to push you away... I really do want to be yours until
the end of time, I want you to have our children, I want that cat,
though I'll be a jerk at times and you'll beat me up, I want to take you
away from your family and move in with you to protect you from all of
the evil that makes you upset, I want everything with you.
Love, just get this, I don't like you talking to him, but it doesn't
mean I'm being over protective or that I'll force you to stop, all I was
doing was saying how I thought, and I'm sorry for stressing you out.
Oh yeah, and so sorry about being so late and confused after the SAT's,
so much shit happened with my mom because of her being pissed at me that
I couldn't help but be late and make you wait. I'll try my hardest to
avoid that from ever happening again.
Okay, I'm done now.
I'm sorry.
I love you so much
I don't mean to seem so protective and jealous at times, I just love you
so much and can't help it.
And most of all.
I trust you, if I didn't, I wouldn't have given you my heart <3
--mhshsho
Saturday, May 1, 2010
Meh.
I recently found out that my love has been talking to her ex since I've been enable to come online since I got in trouble because my aunt found Sharon in my house. I hate how I can't go online when my love needs me most, I can't stand it, I feel so bad. If you're reading this, which I'm sure you eventually will, I want you to know that I'm sorry and that I'll try my best to stay out of trouble and do what I have to do, hell maybe I'll even kiss some ass for once in my life so I'll be able to talk to you asap, hun <3
But about her ex, I know I shouldn't worry because I honestly have no reason to, but I don't know, I still feel a tad bit uneasy about it, I mean, he is obsessed, with her after all. I'm not stressing myself over it, cause I know she won't leave me for anyone, let alone him, but it's weird still... I'm not gonna tell her not to talk to him because I don't want to restrict her and say who she can and can't talk to, but I really don't like the idea of them talking and being friends, especially going as far as calling each other. I felt really weird when I found out that she called him and said her mom was on the phone, lying to me about it, but I know she just didn't want to get me upset, but still... that's just me, what can I say? I just love her so much and the idea of her getting close to another guy is scary to me.
I hope you'll understand, love. I'm not pissed or upset, okay? So don't worry your pretty little head.
I love you,
Good luck on your SATs
and hopefully I'll see you soon =] <3
But about her ex, I know I shouldn't worry because I honestly have no reason to, but I don't know, I still feel a tad bit uneasy about it, I mean, he is obsessed, with her after all. I'm not stressing myself over it, cause I know she won't leave me for anyone, let alone him, but it's weird still... I'm not gonna tell her not to talk to him because I don't want to restrict her and say who she can and can't talk to, but I really don't like the idea of them talking and being friends, especially going as far as calling each other. I felt really weird when I found out that she called him and said her mom was on the phone, lying to me about it, but I know she just didn't want to get me upset, but still... that's just me, what can I say? I just love her so much and the idea of her getting close to another guy is scary to me.
I hope you'll understand, love. I'm not pissed or upset, okay? So don't worry your pretty little head.
I love you,
Good luck on your SATs
and hopefully I'll see you soon =] <3
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