Understanding

You have to understand, love.
I didn't get uncomfortable because of you and thinking that you have feelings for him. I trust you and I know I don't do a good job of showing it. I don't want you thinking that I don't trust a word you say, it's just that I know he wants you and just the fact that he's trying to get so close gets me a bit upset. I know you'd never do anything with him, and I know that you can handle yourself, but still, I just can't stand the thought of someone else trying to steal your heart from me. I'm sorry I hurt or upset you, I really, truly am, you just have to understand that I can't help my feelings.

The Truth

The truth is, though it may seem like I don't trust you because I get so jealous, it's not you that I'm worried about, it's them
The truth is, even though you've lied to me and broken several promises, I still trust you
The truth is, through all of the little arguments we've had, I've still never stopped loving you
I will never stop loving you.
The truth is, even though I drifted from you a bit, I still love you more than anything in the world, more than I could ever describe.
The truth is, I could never drift too far from you in the first place, my heart won't allow it
The truth is, I only get jealous and upset when certain guys try talking to you, not because I think you'll leave me, but for the simple fact that they want my baby
MY baby

The truth is, sometimes when I ask if you love me, it's not because I don't trust that you do, I just love hearing you tell me that you love me
The truth is, that line was redundant
The truth is, I'm only working this job to spoil you the way you should have been
You know yourself you deserve it after all of the shit you've been through
The truth is, I miss reading you blog about me, write about me, and tell your friends about me
I miss seeing you express your emotions
The truth is, though you think that I've changed and don't love you as much, I'm only acting that way so you'll maybe act more emotional and realize how much I really mean to you
please stop thinking I'm not as attached to you
because I am
I really am

The truth is, I didn't mean to be selfish or clingy when not wanting to break up, it's just that even though I knew you wouldn't get with anyone else, I just couldn't stand being without you, not even for a second.
The truth is, I loved when you got jealous, I found it extremely cute when you'd delete my posts and delete girls from my buddy list
The truth is, though you felt you were controlling me, I liked it, I loved how much you cared
The truth is, at times when I don't IM or email you first, it's not that I'm not thinking about you, I just like it when you message me first, because it shows me how much you miss me
The truth is, the day before we got back together; before you emailed me saying you missed me, I was staring at my phone for a half an hour before, waiting for you to message me
trust me, you don't know how hard it was not messaging you

The truth is, I just don't want you holding back, keeping emotions in, I love when you express them
The truth is, I know this is getting long, but I can care less
The truth is, I didn't take a break during my routine today at work just to write this note
The truth is, I can't listen to a love song without thinking of you
The truth is, the only reason I say "I love you" so much, is because I never want you to forget, because I'll never be able to forget all of the times you told me you thought I stopped loving you
because that is impossible

The truth is, there are times I don't know what to do
what to say
how to feel
but
The truth is, there was, and will never be a time where I didn't know that I love you.

Great... I just realized if im going to my cousins im going to have to take the F, which was our train, and get off at our stop and see her building... Its going to be a hard trip... I miss her... I hope you'll be in my arms again soon, my love. I miss you already, just know when I get my hands on you friday, im not letting you go. I love you, sharon. I really hope you come back, I hope you're missing me too.

I'm sorry. I'm sorry if I'm causing you a lot of problems. I'm sorry if this is all too much for you. I'm sorry. I promise I'll stay faithful. I promise that I'll love you forever. I promise that I'll stay with you. I promise that I'll be there on July 1st.
I'm sorry, love. I really am...

I need therapy, BADLY.

Today was the best/worst day of my life. I dont ever want to lose you, or ever come that close again. Every time I think about how close I came to losing you, I start crying like a baby, just like right now. I know you need space, and im willing to give it to you even though it hurts, I just never want to lose you.

I love you, babe.

Please get her dick out of your mouth, she really doesnt like it. Thank you, and may your day be as shitty as you are.

Chris:''is it true you shouldn't date a friend just in case you break up and lose them?
Sharon:''psh, we getting MARRIED!''
roflmfao that made my day yesterday.

Its okay baby. Its okay. I love you too much to ever stay mad at you anyways. I forgive you, now if you wanna see me truely happy you'll forgive yourself too.<3