Less than three

Right now im with my love at Central Park,
chiilllllllllllllllllllllllllinnnn with my love =]
It's so perfect, I love everything about this girl, but most of all, I
love how we don't have to do something exciting to have an amazing
time.
on a side note... I think it's funny how whenever we kiss, it's really
warm,b but when we stop it gets freezinggggggggg. I guess I just shows
that our lips are meant to be together forever. <3
and to be honest right now, I really would rather be kissing my Sharon
than writing... but she's been getting all woman on me for not posting
for awhile xD <3
This girl makes me love her so much, it's quite ridiculous :3

Gifts.

I'm blogging from my phone. These pictures are ones of the gifts from my
boyfriend. I love them so much but I love him even more. Thank you,
Kevin.

--mhshsho

Confusion and Shoes.

Yes, I'm confused right now. Not because I'm blogging more than twice today. Not because my bi- I mean, mom isn't bitching at me. Not because my sister is walking around the house with her shoes on. But because I'm listening to My Chick Bad by Ludacris. What in the name of fuck? See why I'm confused? The last time I lstened to Ludacris was like... five years ago and that song was called Runaway Love. Also, my love just told me that his step-grandmother was staring at him while he was working out. I'm confused. Like... for real. O.o
Anyways, I've been thinking about going shopping for shoes lately. I need to buy myself a pair of heels for the spring. I want to buy a few pair of new high heels and wear them during the spring and the summer since I need to start practicing walking in them for my older sister's wedding in June. Her wedding is on June 26th and I plan to be dressed up that day. I want to look pretty for once in my life and not have my mom bitch at me the whole time. Anyways, I plan to go to some stores to check out shoes soon. And Kevin, don't worry, I won't drag you along. xD ♥

Testing out email blogging.

Just like the title says, I'm trying out my blogging from my cell
phone's email. Hopefully it works. If it doees, hooray. =]
--mhshsho

I'm a simpleton.

Hmm....
I don't know what to write... My love is just complicated like that. My love for Kevin.
I love you.

Birthday and Sharon.

My birthday was last weekend, as you may know from my love's older post, but heck, I figured I'd make a post about it anyways, considering that I like boasting about how happy and in love I am with Sharon, and because it makes her happy to read these things, so here we go. :D
Well we celebrated my birthday, the big 18, at a bowling alley, taking pictures using a disposable camera, can't get anymore straight up ghetto than that, now can you? xD
Well... thats not what's important, the little gathering was fun and all, but what really stole the spotlight was.... *drumroll*
That's right folks!
My little Ms. Sunshine did <3
Friday, the day before my mom shoved me out of her uterus 18 years ago, Sharon decided to ditch school and come pay me a little visit, boy, was I happy. We hung out the whole day and she gave me one hell of a birthday present. ;D <3
The next day, my Sharon and I ran around Chinatown, running into many old Asians just CHILLIN in the middle of the street on our way to the doctors office so that she could get her weekly allergy shot. It took us sometime to get there, considering the obsticles we had to go through during the journey, but it was still fun. Walking = fun? Well when it's with my love, yes... surprisingly.
It was funny, while she was getting the shot, my baby sister called me to wish me a happy birthday, and during the wishes, she decided to drag me into a wholeeee different topic of conversation, like always. Sharon didn't know who I was on the phone with, so after about 10 minutes or so, while leaving the office, she looks up at me with her face bright red, muttering, "NOW, I'm getting jealous." My love was tighttttttttt, and what made it even worse was that at the end of the conversation, I said, "I love you too"
Once I said those 4 words, she gave me the stare of a lifetime! Man, she got so jealous... until I told her who it was, of course. Silly babe, she thought it was my friend Sam. Hmm... she might get mad at me for saying this, but I actually find it kind of cute when she gets jealous like that, though when she's upset, she is hard to cool off. I love her <3
Skipping....~
So yeah, I won't get into the whole party and what happened because that's not important, the thing that really made me happy was spending time with Sharon and being able to introduce her to those who mattered to me, because they're gonna have to get used to her being around :3
Oh, and lastly, she looked fucking gorgeous...
Just saying ^^ <3


(I have one more post I wanna put up, but I don't wanna put them all up at once, so it'll be up by tomorrow night. I can't wait, the post is probably gonna make her :D and/or ><)

Denial.

Sharon spoke to Shafiul today and when she said if they'd ever be friends, he'd have to accept the fact that me and her are together. In responce to this, he said, and I quote:
"I dont care, you guys aren't gonna last anyways."
This is my response,

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If you couldn't tell, I found this HILARIOUS.
He really thinks I'd ever let such perfection out of my grasp? Hah, he's got to be stupider than I thought. Silly boy... he really doesn't get that I love this girl with all of my heart and soul... oh well, sucks for him.

Oh, and he saw us making out today and totally flipped out. ;D

-As a side note, I don't mean to sound like an asshole, but this kid has been talking shit about me non stop for pretty much the last two months and quite frankly I find it pretty annoying. I tried to be reasonable, I tried to console the guy, but nothing worked, and he just kept talking more... so... FUCK IT.
I love you, Sharon. <3

You Are My Heart.

Sweetie, you're my heart.
Sweetie, you're my love.
Sweetie, you're my life.
Sweetie, you're my soul.
Love, you're my everything.

I remember it like it was yesterday. The first time we really talked was when he hit me in the face with a volleyball during my freshman year. Amusing way to meet, right? He freaked out and apologized a thousand times. After that, we started hanging around the same friend to get to know each other more. Back then, I still had uber short hair, braces, and huge and round glasses. I looked like a nerd. Straight up. Then, during my sophomore year while he was a junior, I would always get to school early just to see if I was able to see him in the morning. I always looked forward to seeing him in the morning even though I knew that he barely ever came in early at all. But whenever he did come in early, I would always make him sit next to me, or I would get up to hug him and stand close to him. I would always try to find him wherever he was, just to try to get a hug from him. I loved his hugs because they made me feel safe and warm.
A while later, my friends created a little family tree of the group of friends that we had. Some way or another, he ended up becoming my great-grandfather. It was rather cute back then, before we admitted to each other that we liked each other. After that, it was just a bit awkward but it didn't stop us from being so into each other. I would always yell "grandpa" down the hall and run to him for a hug, looking up from the hug to see his smiling face as we talked a little as we hugged. All of our hugs lasted at least a minute unless one of us were in a rush. normally, he would be the one in a rush since he had a girlfriend who was bossy/picky/bitchy/an asshole/a pain in the ass/just absolutely fucked up. He also had a girlfriend who was so fucking stupid that the word "stupid" doesn't even begin to describe her. Also, she was one of the most hated girls in the entire school. She even used him, my poor love. I was gonna kick her ugly ass when she told me that I couldn't hug him anymore, that "hugging time was over." Well, guess what bitch. He's mineee!!! Hah!! But that's not the point. Maybe it is but whatever. I had a fun time cursing her out in my head while being polite to her and not letting go of him. I was also dating at the time but unlike his ex-girlfriend, my ex-boyfriend didn't try to pull me away from him. People say that it's because my ex-boyfriend was afraid of him and I don't blame them. My boyfriend is brolic. But I don't mind. I like his everything. x3
I think that maybe I was always attracted to him. I always noticed during my freshman year that I would always stare at him when I wasn't busy being a nerd. I was always watching him when he wasn't looking, like when he was busy playing basketball. One of the reasons why I got hit in the face while playing volleyball was because I was busy watching him and loving him. Another reason would be because I simply suck at getting the ball. Last reason would be that I can handle taking hits really well so I didn't mind it much. He was just too... worth it. He's too much and I just couldn't ignore him. He was like a gift sent from heaven just for me but was stolen and used in the process of getting to me. But I finally got my gift. =]
Then, we were both in the environmental club at our school where we would go early to collect paper to be recycled and then we would have small trips to different parks and facilities to help out. I remember the one day where almost everyone went to the park to help de-weed and plant new plants. He was there. He told me recently about how he thought that my shirt was extremely low-cut that day. I don't agree. That shirt was NOT low-cut. I was so excited about being there, especially since he was there too. It was fun, even though I got countless balls of I-don't-know-what-but-they-were-prickly-and-they-hurt-and-they-stick all over me and I had to get people to help me take it off. That day was one of the best days evar.
Speaking of best days, that special day was one. The day we first kissed. There was snow outside and we were both single. When he kissed me, I was shocked that he really did it. I was about to pinch myself to check if I was awake. I was so happy at that moment. SO happy. I deem that the best day of my life. Not only that, the kiss was perfect. He thought that I was mad at him when I asked him why he kissed me. I laughed so hard at him when he told me that he thought I was angry. He didn't know that I've loved him for two whole years. He asked me if I liked him once and I told him that I did but he forgot about it. So I just told him again. After a few days, we were going out. A little before that though, we were friends with benefits which was a rather interesting turn of events.
There's a lot more that I want to say but I don't know what they were. But for now, this is all. ♥

"Waterfalls"

Bwehehe! >:3
<3

Engulfed.

He's like a bandage for my heart. He's like the little glass sphere that keeps all of me together, from breaking apart and going all over the place. He keep me from going insane. He keeps me from getting myself ripped apart. He's the one person that I trust amongst the two or three. He's in my little sphere of love and affection.

I'm hungry... xD

A Guy's Property.

Well, recently, I saw an episode of a Chinese drama that my sister was watching and it was talking about what a woman wants most from their guys. Stuff like belongings. For me, the top three things would be and why…

1. His hoody. - If you like hugging his hoody and pulling on it, and he offers to let you keep it with you, then he notices what you like. He tries his best to satisfy what you want and need. He also wants to keep you warm.
2. A copy of the keys to his house without forcing him and without him telling you when you can and can’t come. - This shows that he doesn’t mind you being in his personal space and will allow you barge into his house unannounced at any time at all. It might take you some time for this to happen, but just be patient. Not only that, it would be nice for him to wake up to your cooking in the morning after you sneak in and keep quiet. Nothing beats a good breakfast in bed for a guy. Like they all say, the way to a guy's heart is through his stomach. ;]
3. Something that he uses practically every single day of his life. - This shows how much he wants you to be with him. He would go as far as to give something important to you and let you have it, as if letting you keep part of him.

That’s basically it. I thought of it while thinking about Kevin. I have two things so far and hopefully, I get to have the last. =]

I’m looking forward to being with him for an extremely long time. This post was mainly to show people the things that they might just agree on. If you have some things to say that are similar to this, reblog. Spread the love~!! Yay!!

Throwback - Snow Day, Feb. 10, 2010

Quite simply the best day of my life, no question about it.
I remember the day like it was just yesterday. The night before, I was at my cousins house playing some xbox with my cousin, when the smell of sweat finally got to me and I decided to take a shower. I jumped in and took my 09' with me, to chat with some friends, to see what was up. School had already been cancelled for the day ahead, so I really didn't have any plans. I was talking to a couple of people, including Sharon's ex, Shafiul, who was begging me to, once again, get her to talk to him... he didn't quite understand how pointless that was. xD
Anyways, I had been thinking about Sharon at the time and decided to IM her. We always had good conversations, no matter what the topic was, that's how we always were, I had always loved talking to her. <3
At one point, she mentioned how she had nothing to do for the day ahead, and she really, REALLY didn't want to stay home with her psychotic mother. I don't know if I was right, but I took this as a sign that she wanted to see me, perhaps. I told her how I was at my cousin's place, had nothing to do either, and how he lived on Clinton street, which I knew was close to her place. Aren't I good at giving hints? ;D
I remember her exact words, "ohhh... lemme stalkk youuuuuu..." Hah, told you my hints were good, but now, I had a date :3
I was ecstatic, to say the least, I mean, little did she know that I had always had a thing for her and now that her and I were single, perhaps I'd be able to make a move of some sort. =]
I went to sleep happy, anticipating the sight of the girl of my dreams the next day. <3


I woke up at around... 11? I washed up and checked my sidekick to see if Sharon was online to ask about the details and the meet up spot for later, but when I went to ask, she had told me how her mother was bitching (surprised?) and that she wanted to leave now, like right now. A bit dazed, I threw on anything I found and quickly ran out the door. I met up with her at the Finefare (ghetto ass supermarket ;D) and we ventured through the snow to get some ink for her printer. Man, it was fun xD
we had to dodge snow and clueless Asians to get to the damn store. Occasionally the puddles were so big and deep that since I had snow boots, and ms. prepared decided to rock Jordans (...) that I'd grab her by the legs (though sometimes my hands would slip and go all the way up to her ass :x) and carry her so she wouldn't get her feet soaked, it was funny because she would always scream when i picked her up, yet she'd thank me when I'd put her down xD
We got the ink, and quickly decided that we wanted to go to Hunter since it was easy to get to and snow proof. We took the F to 63rd and Lexington, and that whole ride we pretty much chatted and fooled around... oh, did I mention that we sat EXTREMELY close to each other the whole way there? :3
After, yet again walking through piles of snow, we settled in on the 8th floor balcony, just her and I, the only two rebels crazy enough to slug through the 8 or 10 inch snow storm currently terrorizing the city. We sat close, yet again, when I decided that I'd tickle her, just for fun. She jumped and laughed her little heart out, it was so cute <3
I stopped, and once I had finished, she decided to lie down on me (woot!) I was dying inside, I could believe that the girl I've admired for the past two and a half years was alone with me, leaning on my body, showing that maybe, just maybe she felt for me like I felt for her.
We stood there for awhile, me and Sharon, my hand on her stomach, her fingers in between mine, my other hand on her thigh and her other hand on mine, it was just perfect. We talked while cuddling until my mom decided to call, PMSing at me for going out in the snow and telling me, literally to get my ass home. I didn't listen well. I went back to Sharon and this time I rested my head on her stomach. Once again, we stood in that position for a bit, while her hand stood glued to my chest, and my head kept seemingly moving up an inch of her body every minute or so. My GOD I wanted to kiss her soft lips so badly. :l
We just stood and stared at each other, barely even talking to each other anymore, just staring.
Until I decided to break the ice.
I asked her if she knew what an Eskimo kiss was, she said kind of, so I decided to show her. Honestly, I didn't give a shit if she knew what it was, I just wanted an excuse to get close to her face. Yes, I'm shy. -.-"
I kept rubbing my nose against hers, hoping that I'd summit enough courage to kiss her, but I failed... miserably.
After 30 more minutes, and 12 angry texts from my mom, I decided to go before I got shot, and Sharon followed.
Though I begged her to come back home, she decided that she didn't want to, she's so difficult!
We took the escalators down from the third floor the the first, and each flight, I would stand one step under her, so her face would be at level with mine, and I'd keep Eskimo kissing her, while very immature and weird, she seemed to be loving every second of it.
I stalled, I wanted those lips, I wanted them so badly that it hurt, literally. I felt like kissing her, but I really didn't know how she'd react, so I kept stopping.
Not for long.
I though, "now or never"
On the last flight, I got really close, and gave her another lame Eskimo kiss, except this time I kept tilting my head more... and more... and more... and after detaching my nose from her, I moved in, heart jumping out of my chest, I tap kissed her.
:OOOOOOOOOOOOOO
The only thing I muttered to the shocked little Asian girl beside me was, "Don't tell anyone!"
She said she wouldn't, though she still had that "holy shit" expression on her face.
She dropped me off, and I went home, sad because I had to leave her there alone.

No the story isn't over ;D

I got home and quickly got an IM from the girl that I had just kissed. "what are you up to, misterrrrrr" she said. I told her what I was doing, and she told me what she was doing, and how she wasn't home yet. I was pissed -.-"
Suddenly, she asked me why I kissed her, that she was curious and I didn't have to answer if I didn't want to. I got scared, I thought that she was mad for me kissing her, so I said that it was just in the moment and that I was sorry. Yes, I know, I'm a pathetic liar. She said I didn't have to be sorry, and that she didn't get upset about the kiss, NOT AT ALL. I asked if she liked me, and she said "yeah", and then went on to say how she's liked me for the last two years (she's a biter) and that she even liked me while with Shafiul and Iftekher. I was shocked... but happy, really happy. For basically the next 6 hours, we confessed practically everything to each other, laughing at how oblivious the other was, through the hints we put forth and everything and at the end of the conversation, we had decided that we shouldn't date just yet because of our exes, but that we'd be friends with benefits... lots of benefits, though it didn't last long. <3
It was simply perfect, the chats, and the time we actually spent together. I love this girl with all of my heart, and I can't even begin to explain how I felt when our lips first touched, how I felt when she told me that she had felt exactly the same about me as I felt about her, she made my day, my month, my new year, and she continues to make me fall harder for her each and every day we're together. If it wasn't for this snow day, I wouldn't be nearly as happy as I am now, I wouldn't be able to call the girl of my dreams, "mine" like I've always imagined. This, was the best day of my life. <3

Birthday.

Today was Kevin's birthday and I went with him and his family to go bowling. It was fun~!! I had a good time laughing at his cousin's bowling. My skills in bowling seems to have gone down the drain but soon after I got through the second game, I got better. a few spares and a strike. Of course, Kevin was still way ahead but I was kinda catching up. At one point, I ended up telling Kevin to start getting himself some gutterballs since he was already wayyyyyyy ahead of the rest of us. I love that guy so much... So, so much. Sososososososososoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much. x3
After we finished bowling, we had cookie-cake. Basically, it was just one huge chocolate chip cookie. That cookie was yummyyy. My love is so lazy. xD
After that, we all left and went to TacoBell and Pizzahut. I think Kevin's mom and aunts along with his cousin went to Wendy's. In TacoBell, while we were eating, we ended up talking about movies and games. After a while, we started talking about Bruno. Jon and Kevin haven't watched it yet but me and a friend of theirs, Lucas, talked about it anyway. I had such a great time.
I thank Kevin's mom. She paid for just about EVERYTHING. I thank her and everyone else. I had such a good time. I had a great day and what makes it better is that it was fucking beautiful outside. ♥

Thank you.

Thank you, love.
Thank you for turning such a shitty night into a great one.
Thank you so much. <3

Mother.

I swear to god. This bitch. When I am telling her the truth about working on stuff educational, she doesn't believe me. When I lie about something else, she goes and believes that. What kind of shit is this?!
Stupid woman. I'm moving out of this shit-hole ASAP.

Chocolate.

My love's a new form of chocolate to me. He's so addictive and lovable. xD Hearing him confess stuff to me and then thinking that he was an idiot for thinking and doing those things was touching. Of course, I thought it was a little cute... He was being his shy self and I loved it. He was being mean afterwards though. I love him so much though. =] ♥
Speaking of chocolate, I found out what my sister's wedding cake is going to be. A bunch of cupcakes. They will be both vanilla and chocolate flavored and then they will covered with frosting and flowery decorations. They are going to look so pretty~!! Oh, and it's a cupcake tree. It's preeeeettyyyy. xD

Success!

Hah,
I made her smile <3
she also bit her lip everytime she'd stare at me. :3
wonder what that meant... ;D

Short, but meaningful

I love you Sharon, and I always will, from now until forever... no matter what <3
Yes, this post is both short AND random, but I figured I'd say it because,
1. It's true, oh so true.
and
2. In the last post, my love was freaking out about losing my necklace that I had given her about a week before, thinking that I'd get really upset, stay silent, and start acting all pissed off with her. My love is sooo silly :3
Babe, if you're reading this, no matter what happens, you know that I'd never be able to stay upset with you, not even for 5 minutes because I love you so damn much. I don't mind that you lost/misplaced the thing, those kind of objects could be replaced, and if you don't find it, I'll put a new necklace on your neck in no time. There kind of things happen, love, don't get so upset about it, especially when you know I could never stop loving you, not even if I tried (and I never would)
Like I told you before, the only thing I'd ever get upset about if I lost, is you. <3
Nothing else matters, nothing at all.

Tom

Wooooooooooooot, Tom is FINALLY gone, that bitch!!!!

I can't even begin to say how relieved I am that he's gone, he was really and I mean really starting to piss me off... though some of his side effects were pretty damn hilarious, right love?
xDD
;D

Bad Day.

My day was so bad, I feel like crying. I woke up late and then my mother was yelling at me for waking up late. Then she was yelling at me for hogging the bathroom. It's not my fault she decided to go back to sleep. She should know by now that I always sit on the bed and doze off while pulling on my pants. Thta's just how it is so why is she bitching at me? I just don't get it.
Then, I swear to god, this really makes me want to cry. BADLY. I could have sworn I was wearing the necklace that Kevin gave me when I left my house but then after gym, it wasn't around my neck anymore. I don't know if I was dreaming while putting on the necklace or whatnot but it still makes me want to cry to know that I might have lost it. I don't know what he is going to say when I tell him because I didn't tell him yet. I'm waiting for Kevin to leave class right now because I am in the Hunter College Campus library, waiting for 2 PM to come so that I can see him and maybe see my day get a tiny bit better. I still doubt that it will get better because I don't know what Kevin will say when I tell him that I lost it. I'm sure he will get upset and all. I really don't want to upset him and I'm scared that I will. I know that he won't do anything to me but he will be all silent and he won't say anything to me for a little while. I don't want that to happen. I love him so much, if he was going to get upset like last time, I really will cry...
I hope he won't get upset with me and I hope that I find the necklace. If I don't I think I'll never accept anything from anyone ever again. Losing that necklace shows how damn irresponsible I am and it makes me feel so sad.
I love you Kevin and I hope you won't get upset.
This day was already really bad. i hope nothing like this ever happens again and that maybe the days after today will be a little better.

Past two.

Yup. These past two days. It was amazing. Yesterday, I cut school during lunch and went to Hunter College to study for my statistics 113 class. After about an hour or so of studying and staring, I went upstairs to the 8th floor balcony and found Kevin. The first thin I thought was "yay~!!!" and the first thing he thought was "am I hallucinating?" I laughed so hard when I heard him tell me that.He thought I was a hallucination. Hehe~ ♥!! Wasn't he so happy. He makes me smilee~! Also, he makes me wanna kiss him alllll the time. :3
Soo... After we hung out at the 8th floor, and talked for a little while (including hearing Geoffrey be extremely random and draw some weird looking ninja), we left and headed over to his house. Of course, once we got there, it was the same routine. Go in the building, go upstairs, hide, he opens the door and checks if anyone is home, then if clear, I get to go inside. Amusing routine, right? I'm such a ninja. ♥ He's my ninja love. xD Me and my ninja love had fun together. ;D
His room is a mess. Nice, right?
Then today, after the extremely fast and cheerful day in all of my classes, I got to see Kevin afterschool. It was absolute yay-ness. ;] We ended up watching the pie-eating contest that was being held in Hanemann's room. I laughed so hard. I only watched about... 3 of the 8 people that were in the contest. They would be Erlinda Lulaj, Christopher Franqui, and Matthew Watson. It was funny. Right when Hanemann said "go!!", they just stared at her until she said go again. Chris just stuffed the whole pie in his mouth and half of it came flying back out. I laughed so hard, I thought I was going to drop to the floor. Erlinda took one bite and gave up, giving the "i can't do it/nuh-uh/time-out" hand motion. Matthew, during the whole time, was just eating the pie leisurely as if he were at an all-you-can-eat buffet. He was just sitting there and chewing while sipping the water from the cup. Erlinda persisted a little, then gave up again. Chris continued to literally stuff his face. One of the funniest moments of my junior life. We all just sat there, cheered, and laughed so hard, we all almost choked from lack of oxygen. Taha was choking and dying on pie too. Funny. Hehe. :3

Well, that's a good enough mini summary for these last two days. Before I forget, I changed the title of my blog because there's a new author. ♥ Kevin~!! I just added him a few hours ago so =]

Notice.

And if you haven't noticed, I'm a pretty jealous guy... hence, the 10-15 deleted posts. I don't know, I just have negative feelings towards the guys shes been with, allow me to explain.

I hate her past, I hate all of the douches who were lucky enough to have her before I took her as my own.
I hate how she was treated.
I hate how she kept getting hurt.
And most of all, I hate how those dickwads didn't realize how amazing this girl really is.

Oh well, I guess I should be thankful, because their biggest mistakes allowed me to finally have her all to myself, and unlike them, I won't allow her to get hurt again... EVER again.


P.S.*
I HATE Iftekher.
Just saying ^^

Muahaha :3

I don't know how many people read this, and I don't know how many of said people actually pay attention to the number of posts that have been published, but if you look closely, you'll notice that a shitload of posts have vanished into thin air. Hm, and before I begin, I think I should let you all know...this is NOT Sharon ;D
If I'm not Sharon, who could I possibly be? :O
Well, people, lets take a peak at my love's (<--- just made my identity pretty damn obvious) last couple of posts, you'll notice a reccuring person. Yep, you guessed it! (if you didn't, you're retarded) It's her boyfriend, Kevin <3 Hmm, what shall I say? Well... Little Ms. Sunshine decided to cut today, and surprise the shit out of me (not literally) at the balcony. It was unexpected, yes, but I couldn't say I wasn't anything short of estatic to see her so soon... though I didn't want her to cut so soon >.>
It was great, we hung out at the college for a bit, being our usually wacky selves, chatting, and all that jazz, before ditching the overcrowded 8th floor social spot and headed to my place, where we could hang out for a bit, just me and her, how it's meant to be.
I'd rather not go into detail about the time we spent at the house, but all you need to know is that we had fun, lots, and lots of fun ;DD
I love spending time with Sharon, whether it be alone, or with a group, we're always ourselves and find a way to have a great time. I love my baby so much <3 But yeah, where was I...? Oh yes, how could I forget? we had to bolt out of the apartment, because, like always, we COMPLETELY lost track of time. xD We ran back to the college asap to avoid from her being late to stats and beating me into oblivion, and we got there just in time, like literally at 4:10. My ass is saved! (for now) She took a test... the test she was supposed to take like, eons ago, about damn time -.- She insists that she failed because she left a couple of questions blank, but I think she did fine, my love is a smartie, no matter how much she denies it. :3 Finally, as another perfect day with the girl of my dreams unwinds, we met up by Thomas Hunter Hall, and went downstairs to catch the bus. Oh, did I mention how genius over here gave part of our bus fare money to Heidi? >.> we had to run a mission and a half determining who had transfers and where the hell to find a damn machine that took bills, but eventually we got what we needed and took the bus, woot!
The bus ride and walk back to her house was, like everythign else, too good to be true. I love being with her, no matter where it is. We chatted, stared into each other's eyes lovingly, kissed, and exchanged "I love you"s the whole way back home, never leaving a dull moment in either of our eyes.


If you couldn't tell, I really love this girl, she means the world to me and I hope she knows that. She's always been the girl that I longed for, since the day I was blessed with the sight of her beautiful face in Gym class two years ago. It's funny, really, her and I always admired each other from afar, doing whatever it took to be near one another, but yet never took onto the hints... others did though =P
I love you, Sharon. No matter what happens, I'm never letting you go, I promise you that I'll treat you like the princess that you really are.
<3

Yesterday and happymonsters.

Yesterday was one of the best days of my life. I loved it so much. I got to spend the majority of my day with Kevin. He watched me work on my project and helped out in art class. Although the weather was one of the crappiest in the history of my life, it was still a beautiful day. We both got soaked down to our skins and still trudged around in the rain. When we got to Luis Peralta's fashion show, we were able to stay with each other until 9 PM. We ran around, looking for trains that we could possibly take, seeing as how the trains were being difficult. The train lines were all messed up so we ended up going all the way to Brooklyn for the JMZ.
When we were taking the train, he told me about how, he didn't like saying "goodbye" to me. I almost cried, because I hate to think that I would ever have to say goodbye. I never want to say that word to him. Never. A few days ago, when he told me that he found out he was enrolled in the waiting list to be picked to join the army, I cried so hard. I hated the fact that he might have to leave me to go join the army. I was so scared that he might be picked. Just thinking about this stuff makes me want to cry right now. I hate it. I wish it would never have to happen. Never.

Also, I wanted to ask everyone to support happymonsters. Lucy, the maker, is going through a time where her family is having huge financial problems so help out. =]
Here's the link to her merchandise.

First.

Today marks the first month that we've been together and one month of the two years in which I've been infatuated with him. One month dating the guy that I've been admiring from afar. One month with the best guy that I could/would ever have in my entire lifetime. One month with the guy that loves me more than anything in the world, even more than basketball. One month with him. ♥
Today is my one month anniversary with my love. I love you, Kevin. For now and always. ♥

The Little Cunt Who Knew No Boundaries.

He's dead. His little bitchy ass is gonna get fucked asap. I really hope he likes being fucked in the ass because I'm gonna go find a broom and shove all up in there. Here's the reason for my ranting today. Yes, I'm giving a reason.

sAz AM 91: I wish hell upon you Kevin. you deserve it for what you did. some1 should keep their sex time private -_-* fucking asshole.
I'm sorry, dear. If you can't fucking handle the fucking truth(irony and pun, unintended), go hide in a mouse hole and have a good time with yourself. I'm sure the mice would love the company.

sAz AM 91:I hope you fucking die worthless asshole...im gonna ruin you...dont complain when pple think your shit.
You piece of worthless shit. I will broom-fuck you so hard, you'll have to go to the hospital and get your ribs checked because by the time I'm done with you, you'll have a few shattered ribs and punctures in your intestines. Not only that, you're going to apologize to my boyfriend for calling him an asshole while you're naked, on your knees, a broom shoved up your ass, and blood all over you. Let's see then, who's the worthless one? The one with the mouth full of bullshit or the guy who was loyal until you came along?

sAz AM 91: Why are you happy lmao...you have nobody.
He has me, you pussy. You on the other hand... Well, let's just say you're looking mighty gay right now. Mind you, not the happy gay, the homosexual gay.

sAz AM 91: I will kil you. so fucking badly. watch how your life gets fucked over
Oh... You want to kill him now? Well, let me warn you a bit. One, you can't even beat him in wrestling. He can toy with you all he wants. Two, you're a piece of shit. Three, if you touch a single hair on his head, you will lose all ten fingers and all ten toes. Four, if I even find out that you tried to kill him; I will have you beaten up, blood running down your face, glass pieces in your hair, and you would most likely be crashing through the window of a 30 floor building.

sAz AM 91: 2 things that you lack. Loyalty and Respect.
Are you looking in a mirror right now? Because talking to yourself isn't a good thing.

sAz AM 91: In my eyes...I already won.
Oh... I'm sorry... I think you're still asleep. Wake up, dear. It's morning. And yes, you were dreaming. Maybe you still are...

Good night and have a nice life people.
Bad night and have a hellish life, Shitfuel.

Boredom and The Effects.

Being bored is not the best feeling in the world, considering how many people say they are bored without considering how they actually are doing something and how they aren't really bored. When I'm bored, purely bored, I rant. At this time, I'm ranting. For example, when I do rant, it makes me happy. I get a lot of feelings and thoughts out and that way, I don't end up trying to find a brick wall to punch or anything. Punching brick walls hurt but it relieves my stress and helps me with a lot. Being bored helps me write random things and helps me create posts even though most of what I am ranting about makes no sense whatsoever and that probably, most people who will end up reading it aloud would run out of breath due to my run-off sentences. With true hope that nobody tries to read it out loud unless it's a certain few, I think I will continue on with my absolutely random ranting and go on with my life.
Just yesterday, Kevin asked me if it was fine if he and Natalia stay friends. Of course, I said yes since I'm not his mother and I don't intend on controlling his life to such high degrees. I still hate the bitch mainly because she was causing trouble for Kevin and I. Also, she dumped Kevin and didn't care until I took him. At that time, she ended up saying that she wanted to get back with him. Fuck you, bitch. He's mine. I don't like it that Kevin was even talking to her, let alone be her friend but I can deal. I still have to get rid of Shitfuel from trying to interfere with the two of us. He even tried to hook Kevin and Natalia back together. Dumbass cunt. There are so many ways I can kill the two of them. I think about stuff like that when I get pissed off. Of course, I never put them into action. You can tell since I don't have a criminal record of any kind and there is obviously no way I can possibly want to go and buy a gun, right? Not only that, I don't have enough manpower for it and I don't have enough courage for something like that. I'm afraid of horror movies so I don't think that I would, on any level, be able to kill someone without having it haunt me for the rest of my life, even if I served my time in jail.
I just really hate the ex's of my boyfriends because they are always a pain in my ass. I've always considered dating girls over dating guys but there aren't that many lesbians out there that suit my taste. Also, my parents would beat the lesbian out of me if they heard that I was dating a girl. I wouldn't want that to happen.
I'm just having my little moment of being in deep thought without anyone disturbing me No mother yelling at me in the background, no father trying to piss me off, no siblings nagging and whining, no asshole trying to talk to me even though I don't want to talk to them. Sometimes, I get the feeling that something bad might happen to me again. I might lose Kevin. Yesterday, I was imagining the many ways that Natalia might make a move on Kevin and I hated it. Such situations would include:
Kevin is waiting for me somewhere, Natalia pops up out of nowhere, starts talking to him, then gives him a kiss. He's shocked for a second and then goes ahead and holds her waist, kissing her back. I would come along, see what is happening, turn around, then walk away pretending nothing happened and then wait a little longer until they were done to head back over to Kevin.
I always think about stuff like this, especially if my boyfriend stills hold some form of affection for his ex. Of course he would still hold affection for her since she was someone he loved a lot. I don't like that fact and I can't really say that I will let go of these stupid doubts because I'm just like this. I get the feeling that once I start to show these feelings and become more and more worried, I'll end up distancing myself from him and then our relationship would go downhill.
I truly do not wish for that to happen considering how scared and depressed I can get sometimes. It's only been three weeks since the day that we started dating but I really do want to stay with him forever. I've loved him for two years straight now and I've hated all of his girlfriends. Each and every one of them. I always thought that if I ever got him, I would never let go. If I never got him, then I would just continue watching from the side and live the rest of my life in this sadness of seeing him get hurt and then become happy again. I'm still thinking about the many ways that Natalia would make moves on him and I get the feeling that I should stick with Kevin as much as I possibly can to make sure she doesn't. I get really overprotective and stupidly worried but I can't help it. I don't like losing things that belong to me. I'm not saying that he is my property or anything, just that he is someone I would never want to lose. I wouldn't want to hurt him and I wouldn't want him to get hurt. He means everything to me and I would want to do anything for him. He is so precious to me and I hate that there is a chance I might lose him. I hate doubting our relationship and it makes me want to cry but I really can't help it. I'm only human and I'm not perfect. If he were to see this post of mine, he would definitely get worried and ask me what was wrong. I don't mind sharing my thoughts with him and then trying to solve the problem with each other but I really wouldn't want him to get worried.
I know, many of the things that I've said in this post have become repetitive but they are my true feelings. I love you, Kevin. Please don't worry about me. Please don't leave me.