Random

I know this is going to be random, but hey, it's what's on my mind. I'm
starting to feel that surreal feeling again, I can't believe that
Sharon's ACTUALLY mine, me of all people to have a girl who's so
beautiful, so amazing, so fun, so ideal, makes me feel so damn blessed.
I'm listening to the exact part of the exact same song that I listened
to the moment I started talking to her that February day, before the
snow day, and the moment we had made plans to see each other the day
ahead. Man... the memories are rushing through my head... I was a bit
tentative to talk to her that night, because though Sharon and I were
really close and comfortable with one another, I was always a bit shy
with her, being that I liked her so much and all. I remember that I
purposely told her how close I was to her house to see if she'd want to
see me, since she complained about not having any plans that day... wait
come to think of it, love, did you mention that you had no plans to see
how I'd react? Hmm... I wonder.
Anyways, we were chatting normally, and I told her where I was, and she
replied, saying these exact words, "Lemme stalk youuu..." Hehe, she's so
cute. I remember feeling so happy, abnormally happy, it was kind of
unreal actually. I couldn't wait to see her, to have her alone all to
myself. I wondered how we'd act, how I'd act, if I should make it
obvious that I liked her. I didn't know what to do, all I knew was that
I wanted to be with her so badly. Her and I spoke until 11 or so, and
she fell asleep, my princess wasn't nocturnal back then, so she would go
to sleep early. When she fell asleep, and after I spoke to her ex, who
shat his pants when he found out I was going to see Sharon, since he was
still obsessed and since he knew she once liked me, I stood up, staring
at the ceiling, thinking about how anxious I was about the next day. I
was so excited and nervous that I couldn't sleep. I thought about how
I'd get to hug her without interruption, think about making her smile
and giggle, seeing her beautiful face light up, I thought about how I
could make her happy and have her get closer to me because I really
wanted her to be mine. By the time I did fall asleep, I did settle on
one thing. I was going to kiss her lips like I had always dreamed of
doing, I was going to bestow a kiss upon her breathtaking pink lips no
matter what happened.
I'm so glad that I actually followed through with my plan. I'm so glad I
found out that we had the same hidden feelings for each other for so
long. I'm glad I got her. Listening to that part of the song reminded me
how lucky I am to have her, and just how happy I really am to have had
my dreams finally come true. I get butterflies in my stomach when I'd
think about the time her and I were just friends and then thinking about
how we are now. How I could do the things I've always wanted to do with
her, and her only. I can't say it enough, I'm so happy that Sharon's
mine. I'm never letting her go, I'll always treasure her and treat her
like the princess she really is.
I love you so fucking much hun, it's ridiculous. <3
I can't wait until the day I make you my bride
Until the day I take you away.
I used to think of the future as bleak and scary, but now, because of
you, I actually look forward to living on another day, to seeing where I
go in the future.
I love you, I can't say it enough.
I really, really love you, Sharon.
--netzfan4life