love.

Today definitely wasn't the best day I've ever had, hell, it actually
might be one of the worst. Yes, I got to buy my graduation suit. Yes, I
got to go to the gym and power lift again, and yes, my cousin finally
became a man, but because I was so busy, and because my love was so
busy, we barely got to talk today. I really think that this is the least
amount of time we spent talking to one another since the day before snow
day. I hated it, I missed her and still miss her so damn badly... the
whole time I was gone, all I was thinking about was my love, how she was
doing, what she was doing, and how her bitch ass family was treating
her. After about 7 hours of picking out a suit, I finally got home. I
had sent a picture of me in the suit for Sharon, and went on my way.
When I got home, I was so happy to get to talk to her again, I was so
excited. I love her so much. We spoke for a bit, and she sent me a reply
to my picture. I was really hoping she'd be in awe, and love it, bur
instead, she says, "hehe! you look silly. Don't they have a solid black?
And a darker red?" When I read that, I felt crushed, I was hurt almost
as badly as when she lied to be a month ago. I got really upset and told
her how upset I was. She said she liked it and silly was good, but I
still didn't believe it, I thought she thought I looked stupid and
didn't like the suit at all. She told me again how she liked it, and I
still didn't believe her. She got really upset and went on about how I
didn't believe her and didn't trust her anymore. We went from excited,
to upset, and I hated every second of it, and I can't stand when we're
upset with each other. She kept telling me how she wasn't surprised how
I didn't trust her anymore, saying that she knew I'd be like everyone
else and stop trusting her. She also said how though she wasn't
surprised, she was upset because the guy she loves and cherishes doesn't
believe a word out of her mouth. That so isn't true.
Yes, I do misunderstand a lot that you say, but I really don't get upset
at you for it, love. I know we say we look silly all the time, but I was
just really looking forward to impressing you, and silly wasn't the
answer I was looking for, so I got upset and said what I did. I don't
want us to change, love. I love your opinions, I love being silly with
you, I love everything and I don't want one thing different. I love you
so much, hun. I trust you and I'll always trust you, if I didn't, I
wouldn't have given you my heart like this, I wouldn't have allowed
myself to fall so hard for you. Baby, I'm sorry you got so upset after
being so excited to talk to me. I'm really sorry and I promise I'll be
more understanding and try to calm down more. I'm really sorry, babe...
please feel better tomorrow... I miss you, I love you, I really really
do...
I feel so bad...
--netzfan4life